new and afraid..

[bearboy]

hi all..i'm new in here..been a sufferer for 2yrs..

[suzi-q]

How was the interview?  Yes, getting back to work I found to be the best thing.  Diversion is key to beating anxiety.  Hang in there!~

[nursegirl6572]

How did the interview go???  That is a great step, btw!  You are really grabbing the anxious bull by the horns, aren't you?  That's just super.

I don't know if you've started any sort of "official" treatment...but I hope you've given it some thought.  I don't know about YOU specifically...but some people feel that needing professional help is a sign of weakness...or involves a stigma.  It is neither.  After all...if you had high blood pressure, you would go to the doctor to treat it, right?  The term "mental illness" is a scary one for most of us starting out...but soon you'll realize that it doesn't equate with "insanity".  We're simply wired differently....and we need help to un-do all of that anxious thinking and "what-iffing".  It's a step I thank GOD for every day that I took when I was just a young lass.  ;0)

Keep us updated when you can...you have a lot of people here pulling for you and wishing you the best.  Let us support you.....and learn from each other.  Sharing our stories and experiences is the best therapy one can have!

Hope things are better for you....thinking of you!

[JSGeare]

If it is but for the want of a prayer that you will recover and enjoy life to it's fullest, then you've got the prayers on their way!

You are obviously high-functioning and self-aware; qualities which will help you get through. The job opportunity seems very exciting and may well be an avenue of recovery itself. Please let us know how all that works out.

Keep on keepin' on!

[cj29]

Hey...glad to hear from you again!  I am glad that you are sharing your thoughts and concerns with us.  Just ensure you are giving yourself credit for dealing with this.  I believe that you have decided to confront it, and it looks like you have the right attitude to deal with this.  I know it is hard, but keep on working through it and please keep us posted!

[Isaiah4110]

Hey you..it's good to finally hear from you! i'm sure everyone here feels the same way too..they were all just a little concerned & worried about you, that's all..and there was no way i could speak on your behalf..;)

I KNOW this nightmare will definitely end for you some day soon..you just need to believe it and have faith in it yourself..and yes, i've been reading the book DILIGENTLY these past 2 days..thanks for the gentle nudge last week..heh..;)

I know it's scary to go back to work after a year long hiatus..but like i said, isn't it a little bit exciting too? well, try not to worry too much about it, i'm sure when the time comes & you're well & truly ready to go back to work, you'll do great - you're a natural at what you do, you know..and when the time comes & it's still scary & difficult, i'll be there to hold your hand & offer you words of encouragement & support & whatever else you need or want..all you have to do is ask....

Well, i'm off to my reading now..do keep me updated on how that meeting went..much love from me,
Isaiah

[bearboy]

sorry all! oh dear, i must appear indifferent after all that support, i apologize..i just haven't checked in, no time is an excuse..but i have been a little busy, also watced this great video called 'the secret', please go watch it or read it if u guys haven't..

ok the past week i've had several scares as usual, the usual symptoms stays for a little bit, thoughts of high blood pressure, stroke, brain tumor, heart condition etc will run through my mind when the symptoms seem heavier than usual, but i always survive it and make it the next day for another round..

someday this nightmare will all end and i've started praying hard for each and everyone of you here, i'm no saint but desperation makes you think about things that one would normally disregard..

my love goes out to all here..

keep the faith..

ps
sorry if this is a little abrubt, but i have to run out for a meeting..job offers seem to be arising after a one year hiatus..i'm really scared to go back to work but i know i have to eventually..pray for me

love all serve all
bearboy