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[Dreamcatcher01]

Hi I'm new here . I think I'm losing my sense humour everything , I take everything serious . I have two children who live with me fulltime and I just think enough is enough . Can't sleep very well , wake up in the middle of the night for no reason then shattered most of the day . My children come chatting about thre interest and what they have been up to that day and what they want to do and in my head I'm thinking please go away , thats not right is it . I love them to bits though .I have suffered with anxiety for many years but seems to getting worse as get older . Was out yesterday shopping and had eaniety all day and when I saw M'cdonalds packed out I could go in , when I saw all the people inside it was to much for me . I was married 19 years devorced now 6 yrs  but being alone with two childrenwith no friends or family to rely on , I have no one to lean on . My eldest has now left high school and my youngest will starting high , all the changes taking place , You know at the time I want to cry but unable to then it impacks on my later with depression and anxiety , its horrible . I have fear of crowded places and social situations , sometimes I'm unable to make eye contact and of the symptoms get worse ,want to run away , tight head , palpitaions.

[cheshchesh819]

you sound like you have taken alot on the last few years,and devoted yourself to your children,and now its like it has taken its toll on you,looking after children is a 24 hour 7 days a week job and then when they grow up you look around and think what now,i am on my own,but it dont have to be this way,please go and speak to a theripist,there is a whole world out there waiting for you to join it when you are ready,but its you and only you that can get the help you needs and deserve,good luck

[MiuMau]

Do you take any medication? Are you in therapy? You don`t mention anything about this in your post, so I presume you aren`t in therapy and you don`t take any meds. There are solutions to the problems you`re describing - but it`s only you who can take the first step towards them!