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656243 tn?1231288052

suicidal thoughts...

hey all.  experiencing thoughts of suicide. Been taken off celexa now starting efflexor today.  any thoughts?
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I understand you. I have been in the same place many times, with no success , I'm still here. My suicidal thoughts seem to come out of the blue. I have Bipolar depression and anxiety. When I say they come out of the blue, I mean there isn't a catastrophe that has to happen but in my mind my emotions overwhelm me to the point that I truly am not thinking in my right mind. I already have a therapist and meds. For a while my answer was to go to the hospital when the urge was strong and seek help because I knew I was in trouble. I then eventually discovered that Saphris took my suicidal thoughts away. I tried to take it daily but for me I had too many side effects. But, for me it was an immediate help for suicide. Now when the urge comes, I take 1pill, the way my body responds is that it make me sleep for 20 hours, no kidding. When I awake the urge is gone, I'm a little unsteady and my mind foggy for a day but the thoughts are really gone. No more hospitals for me, I actually, by mistake found my magic pill for avoiding suicide.
As for exercising, I believe it works for many people. I guess my mind is just different. I have been forcing myself to walk with an old co worker of mine for 4 months 5 days for 1 hour. We don't miss any days. She is truly my motivator. Without her I wouldn't do it. Reasons, no motivation and my body is always physically tired even with 8 or 9 hours of sleep. Point is, more times than not, I come home from the walk and take a nap. I'm really tired. Other times I don't because I have somewhere I have to be so I have no choice. Instead of energizing me it makes me more tired. I think this is really weird. Is my depression really that strong that exercising doesn't  help. It helps so many other people.
Lastly, I want to comment on something I read over and over again. "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem", and that it is "selfish"' and "think of your family" statements. The last thing someone feeling suicidal wants to here is this. It's as if people are trying to guilt them out of it. No one has ever said this to me but I have read it over and over. From my own experience, when in the acute emotion of this thought, my mind has only one thought process going on, the world does not exist, there is not a conscientious thought taking place in my mind, just crying and pain. It's like most of my mind is gone, it just left. Luckily it has only happened 3 times. The other times of feeling suicidal I can get help. I have tools to use. I just wanted to point out that there are times when one is not in control of there mind and the times they are...reach out to someone, anyone, call 911, call your dr or therapist or go to the hospital where you can get help and be safe. My meds have needed changes. In fact, so many I lost count as I have a very sensitive body to the effects of meds. Thanks for reading my post. I hope I explained my self well enough.


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2215630 tn?1339360151
I dont know if there is help with in the city bus bullhead city,arizona is a small place and i have no one to help me. Today june 10 2012 i was washing dishes and was thinking about taking the knife i washed and cut my wrist but my heart knows its not right so i didnt.
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Curious, How old are u? I am 30 and have felt that way time n time again, it isnt easy. might not b the first time the thought has occurred to you either, but it passes. Understandably the condition can feel extremely overwhelming when coupled with stress of everyday life. But know that There are many types of therapy, and natural means of healing. It is not permanent. it isnt a one medication fits all deal.  you should definitely talk it out with someone, a counselor or therapist. Just keep in mind that these struggles are what define who we are and make us stronger adults so we can deal w the next big thing. But if you dont overcome the bad how will u get to the good? There are Many ways of doing this and living the life you want. You have to try to enjoy the journey of getting to where u want to be in life understanding there will be obstacles, they can really suck thats why theyre called obstacles :P but temporary. Sometimes  people undergo certain trials in life that actially make them better equipped to handle another trial of life or even to help someone else. I prefer more natural means of therapy, but each person is different, as is the extent of their condition at certain times in life. PROCEED WITH CAUTION while taking prescription meds, some can have alternative effect...actually heightening false feelings of depression, insecurities and suicidal thoughts, you have to learn to recognize that,  first of all. Its a misleading thought that does pass. We are prone to 'feelings' of sadness. Try to seek positive and uplifting activities, excercise has been proven to relieve effects of stress and depression, induce energy, cell production, and  increase dopamine levels. Proper eating habits, and positive self talk are also extremely vital! we have to take care of ourselves. We are here, if you want to talk more. You need to start focusing, what do you want out of your life? Who do you want to be? Go to bed with that thought, dwell on it everyday, focus ONLY on your ACHIEVEMENTS through out your day, then you will be taking the steps to live the life you want. You Have to think it and dream it first, subconsciously your mind accepts those thoughts and then you can start taking your life back. But you need to let the negative stuff roll of your back because it comes and goes, we live for the stuff in between.
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994239 tn?1321203620
about the comment that is you were really suicidal, you would just do it.... I tried seriously and thought that it would be and easy to do with enough pills- cardiac pills that is. I tool enough to kill a horse and I woke up alive. I don't know how. I live every day with severe suicidal thoughts and often start acting on them again. i have managed to stop in time, but you never know when I won't, and actually be succesful at ending it all. I am ready to die and seldom think I want to live even though I have a loving family. YOu don't have any true idea of how suicidal people can be, and have to stop or be stopped. they may still be alive, but so was every person who committed suicide at one point
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994239 tn?1321203620
I have felt like this 50-80% of the day for about 10 months . I have sought help, tried all kinds of medicine and therapy, and it still keeps on and on
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"Let me say this, we were not put on this earth to be unhappy or to take our own life....... "

i would very much agree. that statement should apply to all of us here. i think a lot of us are very unhappy at times...a lot of us want to die at times...but even though what goes on in our minds can be hell, we all have a purpose. i have gone through hell with anxiety...and now i'm doing quite well. i'd like to think that possibly my experience with anxiety has given me the insight needed to have helped someone else who has come here feeling the way i did when i came here. there's another lady who posted in this forum that she was affraid her daughter was going to have anxiety...but perhaps if her daughter does have anxiety issues, then it will have helped that she also had the same problem. she'll know how to help her daughter much better than most parents. anyway...i agree that even though all of us here have problems...we certainly aren't just useless tools meant to wallow in our own anxiety induced self-pity. (i don't mean that to sound harsh as i have done that plenty of times.) we all do have some sort of purpose.
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Hello friend,

You know, like many above have said a lot of us here have had those thoughts of suicide.........I personally know how you feel when these thoughts seem to appear out of nowhere.......I am convinced that nobody truly wants to die..........Suicide just seems to be the most logical answer at the most illogical moment............Trust me dear friend it isn't ........ I also came to this site wanting the same answers you are seeking.........
I met some wonderful people here .......They truly can ease the pain........ They do care as they have the same issues you are facing........For so many years I felt I was the only one with problems such as mine.......I talked with some members here and found out that there were more people like me than not like me.......
Let me say this, we were not put on this earth to be unhappy or to take our own life.......

Take some time for yourself......Truly just for yourself.............Talk to anybody here........We will all welcome you.......We will look past any faults you may have....... If you wish to talk, click my name or anybody's and we will try our best to ease your pain......  But if you want to take a chance, take one on us.....We have been there.......We know the emotions you are feeling...........Where one of us can't help there is another that can.........At almost any time of day you can reach at least one of us........Don't do it for us......Do it for yourself...... You'll be glad you did...........Be well my friend, be well...........Gator
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460185 tn?1326077772
Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem.  I've had suicidal feelings since I was a child and even made an attempt as an adult.

Suicide isn't pretty.  Taking pills doesn't just put you to sleep; it makes you sick and suffer before you actually die.

I do know how it feels to think suicide all the time.  I also think if you really wanted to do it, you would not come to MH and post your intention of committing suicide in such a public place as MH.  You'd  just do it.

Do you think you want to kill the pain or yourself.  I don't know how long you had to wait to go from one anti-depressant to another but even anti-depressants have "half lives" and a reputable shrink will make sure all the other ADs are out of your system before giving you a new one.  Did your shrink do this?

Feeling suicidal is awful; it often feels like the only solution but it's not.

Just one more thing - DON'T DO IT - it isn't worth it.  If you don't give in to those suicidal feelings, you are doing something good for yourself and your family.

Enough of my babbling.  If you feel really bad and/or suicidal, send me a PM.

(((((HUGS)))))

wolf


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GOD WORKS when all else fails.  If you are not religious,...then atleast I can say that I have been on Effexor XR for 6 years and it was the best thing that I ever did to help myself! (other than having a deep relationship with Christ) It took about 6 weeks to really kick in, to the point where I forgot that I even had an issue with panic attacks anymore.  I only get panic attacks maybe 2x a year and know how to handle them, but I know that the effexor got me back on track.  ( I had panic disorder, depression and agoraphobia)  PLEASE give it some time to work...your life is precious!
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nothing is worth killing yourself for please get help you are loved
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585414 tn?1288941302
  Please. Let's remember. First of all if anyone actively feels suicidal then they should call 911 asap. However, if someone just has thoughts that make them feel that life is worthless then it is either time to get their medication adjusted or if its a real life circumstance to discuss it with their therapist.
  The most important thing is no one "wants" death. A person thinks they do because they are experiencing depression and medication adjustment or real life circumstances (break-ups, loss of a job) have pushed them over the edge. If a person is talked down from a suicide then they are grateful. Before treatment from my neurologist for the advanced tardive dyskinesia I had two near death episodes one from choking spasms. Luckily I took whatever anti-spasmodic was handy and it stopped it. One could say it was traumatic but it only reminded me how much life was worth living, something I would remind myself if I had feelings of depression that would push me to that point. I don't fear death as it happens to everyone (though with my disability under treatment, my life span is not limited by it) eventually but I don't seek it and I try to put meaningful events in my life and value others and hope to do the same for them.
   Of course when we (myself included) are first recovering we can only be concerned about ourselves but the real world events can be dealt with, with talk therapy and the depression with medication adjusted and that's an issue worth discussing. So for anyone who feels that way say "the feelings are not real" and if actively sucidal call 911 and if not write down reasons why you want to live. And if you feel there is nothing of meaning in your life go to a support group for people with depression and with everyone sharing their episodes of these experiences and how to cope with it then a meaningful dialogue will be created and that experience alone was worth living for.
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I feel the same way you do or did, I wish I was never born....
Nothing seems to be going right and I keep getting more and more depressed by the minute...
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aren't you terrified of death? that's my biggest fear. it consumes me. i fear nothing in this world like i fear death. even so, obviously you should get help...but unfortunately most people feeling suicidal don't go to the hospital....so just remember however bad it may be, like a panic attack, the feeling will pass and a week or month or year from now you WILL be thankful it was only just a feeling and not an action. best of luck...and if nothing else...please talk to someone close to you about your feelings. don't give in to them.
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Hey stay strong, give someone  a call. trust me a lot of us who are on this site have had feelings like this and its true things do get better.  I will say a prayer for you, please stay strong and talk to someone. God bless.
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564491 tn?1320360393
As the person before me said, get help ASAP!!!!! Call your doctor.  Tell him/her how you have been feeling.  There is no need to suffer.  Suicidal thoughts could be a reaction to being off of medication.  Please follow your doctor's instructions, and wait for the new medication to do its thing.  It can take a few weeks to feel the full effects of an antidepressant.  I've been taking Effexor XR for years.  That and Prozac have been the only two antidepressants that have helped me, even minimally.  In the meantime, ask your doctor for the name of a good psychotherapist.  You need support right now.  Do not wait.  Get help immediately.  There IS light at the end of the tunnel.  Things WILL get better.  Please call your doctor!  Take good care.  Good luck.  Please keep me posted.  I want to know how you're doing on the new medication.  You can write to me anytime.  You are not alone.  There are lots of people who care.  

Ellen
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Please Please call someone and get help.  And pray hard.  Suicide is such a selfish act.  Imagine how your family will feel if you do this.  Especially the person that has to find you dead.  Get some help........Please!
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