Please, anybody who reads this, do not jump to conclusions,
because you are not familiar with such concepts.
Well, outofthisworld, there's likely something going on in your subconscious which relates to a real situation.
Your fear in this case and perhaps a part of your depression might be be ways of dealing with the fact that there's likely unfinished business of some sort from the past, relating to you.
If I were you, I would seek a very good therapist, who practices regression and hypnotherapy, to help you shed some light to this mystery with some explanation and perhaps treat your fear, depression and also your variant of agoraphobia/social anxiety.
Need more details on this, please send me a pm.