Hang in there. What pills do you take? I agree with AnnieBrooke. Exercise is KEY! Will get you feeling betting physically and mentally. =)
Have you seeked therapy before? Your babies love you, and they need you. =) You can fight this, and win!
You cant beat yourself up all the time. Nobody is perfect. You will never feel better if think otherwise. Nothing will be good enough, trust me i have been that why and still working on it to this day. In the long run those babies will love you no matter what. All you have to do is love them back. You could be homeless on the streets and still they will love you. Meds will help and how old are your 2? My 4 are 6,4,3,and2. I`m unemployed, single, and been trough sooo much i hate it. I look at babies and appreciate them and try to hold on to hope. Try to focus on whats important.
It seems to come along with the territory of anxiety. I am the same way. I have 3 children and feel like I can't function like a normal housewife and mother.Sorry I don't have the answer for you,but I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I hope you feel better soon!
One thing that is free and has been shown to help more than pills is exercise. Can you put the babies in a stroller and push them somewhere that helps you work out, and be out in the sunlight?
Did you recently give birth, you could be suffering from a post partum realated mental condition. I went pretty buts after my kids and I would suggest you see a doctor. Medicatin can help. Anxiety meds and or depression meds. Good Luck HAng in there it gets better.