Hello people.
Well I have aspergers and I have recently been having alot of trouble with some things I met this Girl and some of her friends online, we played games together and talked in teamspeak and skype all the time, I got to know Her and them really well, she used to bring me into private teamspeak rooms to talk, She was like my best friend to me asked her how her day was and said good morning ever day, Goodnight every night. Talked to her when she was upset, talked to her all the time and did everything together she was my best friend.
So one right I herd her flirting with someone it upset me so i messaged the guy that I liked her and to please not do that with her, but her just told her instead and everyone else. then the next day when ever I talked or did anything she would just yell at me and say mean things to me this went on for a few days, Then I tryed to talk to her privately but she wouldnt say anything to me, then I aked why she couldnt still nothing, then i stated to get upset as to why my best friend cant talk to me I started messaging her alot asking why and why this is happening, still wouldn't talk, this went on for about 2 weeks. I stoped for a bit and then one day I asked why she coulnt talk to me we where really good friends and that i missed talking to her, And she responded but it was more of a like how could you not know whats the matter? I said i dont know you never told me then she laughted at me and said isn't it obvious what happened you did it to your self! I said I didnt know what i did then she said I liked him! then I said I thought you liked me and she said as a friend I did then I, I said I thought you liked me more than a friend. Then it was just silent for a month or so and then my birthday was coming up i was aking her to do something with me and was apologizing but all i got was silence up to it and getting blocked on my birthday and everyone stopped talking to me I was friends with everyone aswell.
So I left for 2-3 months but still was trying to apologize for what ever i did i dont really know what i did was just doing that because thats what you do when people are upset. Though things would have changed people would forget things, I come back but no one will talk to me but two people and basicaly said that she just wanted me to drop things but I did I just had no one to tell it to everyone stoped talking, but know I feel really stupid and bad really bad thats what I did I pestered her and my friends a bit to much that they didnt want to be friends, I had a melt down over all of this I dont really remember ever having one before i was really up set and i still feel bad for doing that a month or so latter, I really dont think they know anything about aspergers at all I tryed to tell them I dont get socal things and emotions that well and I can get eccentric and buggy sometimes before but I really dont think they cared or wanted to know im just the guy that couldnt let things got and didnt get it. I have been trying to appologize and explain to them a little bit about my aspergers but I still feel really bad about everything but its like they dont care about anything but her fellings i was really good friends with them all, and I found out that she no longer likes the other guy.
I Just miss my Friends alot and fell really bad about everything i get really depreast almost every night and I think it will never stop I miss her alot. I really dont know what to do at all... my mom and family/friends say to move on to forget about her and them but its really really hard I known them for a while. im good some days but then night comes and I have no one but all the thoughts in my head like right now, Writing and drawing helps but I always end up thinking about her and what i did and feel stupid and bad my that my head hurts.
I want my best friend back....
