I am 39 about to turn 40 and I think I may have asperger's. I live alone, have only one friend, never dated, can't hold a conversation with anyone, very intelligent but am completely isolated from people. I hate changes, very anxious and paranoid when things change, can't understand what people mean when they talk to me (if joke, serious, etc). When I am in a car with someone I rarely if ever speak...I am too busy looking around...even when driving I am committed to the road and my thoughts are constantly changing. I become obsessed when I do meet someone I would like to become friends with and quickly loose them. I want to go get tested but am afraid that being diagnosed with aspergers or something else will prevent me from working. Every job I get I loose because of social interactions...no complaints about doing my job just my interactions with people. I know I can't keep on like this but am anxious about taking the step to get tested. Even with family I can sit for hours in the room with them and never say a word. I have difficulty when alot of people are around...I NEVER join in on conversations...never know what to say. I just don't know. Am I one or not.... I am at my wits end with all of this.