New to Baby Angels

[BTS1022]

My name is Tami, I have been on hiatus for a while, but im back. I am 25 yrs old and a single mother to 3 beautiful baby boys. I would like to not only introduce myself, but my Angel baby...Bailey Rae.

Bailey was born November 17th 2002 at 4:32am. I had her almost 3 months premature, but she weighed a healthy 7 pounds 7 ounces. I was a young 18 yr old woman, fresh out of high school when I had her. My pregnancy seemed normal, all tests were neg. and ultrasounds were a breeze. Little did I know when I went to the hospital in labor, that my worse pregnancy fears would come true. My labor lasted 72 hours, mainly because the doctors kept me asleep to try and stop my preterm labor..but without success.

I don't want to go into details to much, as with her birthday around the corner, it's still a very fresh wound. Bailey survived for only 30 minutes after birth, and was allowed to pass away peacefully in my arms. She was later diagnosed with Aperts Syndrome, a rare cranial facial chromosome disorder.

She will be turning 7 yrs old in November, and she is missed very much.

This is about as much as I can tolerate getting out without bursting into tears...so I will leave it at that.

[gymmom222]

You are so strong!  I lost my son on aug 18/09 and thought of living without him his terrifying.  The hospital gave him a little white teddy with a blue ribbon around its neck - i sleep with it every night!  So you are not alone there.  

[luvkayln]

Your daughter is absolutely adorable! Thank you so much for sharing her with us! My daughter will be 2 in December, and it still just feels like yesterday I was pregnant with her and anticipating her arrival! I miss her so much! That's so sweet that you sleep with her bear! I used to sleep with Kayln's blankets that she was wrapped up in at the hospital everynight. It was such a comfort b/c they smelled just like her! I was so sad when that smell was gone, but Kayln is in my heart everyday! I keep a picture of her with her daddy in my car and look at it everyday, and we have pictures of her all over our house. I'm thankful we did get pictures, I love being able to still see her everyday through those. I'm thankful as well that we have this support system. I just wish I would've had this when I was going through the hardest part of grieving, but I'm so thankful to have it now.  I'm pregnant again (29 weeks w/ another baby girl) and I do get scared everyday as I near the end of my pregnancy that something will happen to  her too, but I just have faith that God and Kayln are taking care of us. :) We will be here for you when your sweet baby girl's 7th birthday approaches next month, as I know you all will be here for me when my baby girl turns 2 in December. Take care!

[have 2 kids]

Thank you for sharing your story!   I'm sure the pain will never go away but hopefully having a little extra support from us will help you as her birthday approaches.    

[BTS1022]

Thanks everyone! I know I have been needing a good support system in helping me cope. I know the pain never goes away, I can just hope that it does get easier, even though it has been almost 7 years and it feels like yesterday. I miss her everyday, and there is always something some where that reminds me of her. The pic in this post is the only one I have of her. And I have a stuffed bear that was supposed to be hers, and thats it. I still to this day sleep with it at night, and cradle it when I need to cry.

I am pretty open about the medical part about her, but the actual death is hard to discuss.

[rdh1981]

Thanks for sharing Tami! I know your little Angel is smiling down on you!!!! I hope we can be some comfort too, please know we are always here for you!

[rina01]

Hi Tami, I hope you are doing well.  I miss my little angel everyday also and the pain I know will never go away, you are very strong.  Take care. :)

[CYW]

awww **HUGS*** I am sorry Tami and thank you for sharing...she is beautiful...