Wanted to Introduce Myself

[Jenni1187]

My name is Jennifer, I'm new to this forum and come to it for healing more than anything. Here's my story... I just found out two weeks ago I was pregnant, for the first time. I couldn't have been happier. For once in my life, I felt like I had a purpose, I had a path laid out right in front of me and my life had a meaning after all. With my history of PID, I pushed for an early ultrasound. Everyone around me called it paranoia, but I called it concern. I had that ultrasound yesterday. As much as I worried about and feared an ectopic pregnancy, nothing prepared me for the moment those words came from the nurse's lips. I was rushed to emergency surgery, and in what seemed like a foggy flash, I was left with bandages on my stomach, one less fallopian tube, and no baby to show for it. I feel empty, I feel broken, and I feel alone. I'm not the only one out there, this I know. I feel like I never got the chance to say goodbye, but even worse, I never even got the chance to say hello. This is my story and this is my first step towards healing. If anyone else has a story from their experience with ectopic pregnancies or miscarriages, I would love to hear it. And especially if anyone else out there is ttc or has had a successful pregnancy after an ectopic pregnancy.

[Jenni1187]

Thank you all so much for all of the support. I had my follow-up doctor's appointment today and saw the doctor who performed my surgery. He seemed to have high hopes for my remaining tube so I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel again. I'm sorry to hear about all of your all's losses and triumphs and I'm sending tons of baby dust to all of you. Thanks again for taking me in and listening. Good luck!

[MissmyAngel]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, and the crummy way it happened!
Thank goodness you insisted on an ultrasound!
I had lap done last April because they thought I either had endo or PID. I'm at risk for both. They did find scarring in my tubes but aren't sure which it is, its too far in.
That is one of my biggest fears as well.

[12121980]

Jennifer, Lori and angelbaby--- I m very sorry abt the loss... i know how it feels....

Hi, My name is Joy and I m new to this forum.. i have been following ur cycle buddies thread and i felt like joining u guys and share my story... I got pregnant on my own in oct 2008 and M/C in dec 08 at 7 weeks... I m still unable to come out that..... it seems just to be yesterday ........ anyway, we have been ttc after that  and my gyno put me on clomid 50 for 3 cycles and 100mg for 3 more cycles...... but no pregnancy, i seem to ovulate(had been monitored by gyno in one cycle) however, i could never become pregnant. Now i have a appointment with the doc on 8th feb, to dicuss further steps.....But i really donmno what exactly that means........

i think she might suggest injectables or iui.. i m not sure..

Can u girls please advice me as to what to expect from this??
i m kinda really confused and worried abt the next meeting with gyno...

thanks in advance
joy

[1angelbabyM]

I hate to say Welcome to this group, as we are all here under bittersweet circumstances; however, this group of ladies has been super supportive through the time of the loss, the healing process, and now trying to conceive again.  I have never had an ectopic before but I have had a m/c and we are actively trying to conceive again.  I'm hoping you find this group as therapeutic as I have and I'm so sorry for you loss.  You are in my prayers!

[smr08]

Hi Jennifer, welcome to our group. My name is Lori and I also went through a similiar situation. My ectopic was my second loss. I was 4weeks along when I got really sick and was taken to the hospital, I was discharged with a threatening m/c, 3 days later I was taken back when I was so sick that I couldn't get out of bed, an internal u/s showed an ectopic pg. They started the procedure to blow out the tube when the tube ruptured and had to be removed. I remember all to well how lost I was, the empty feeling was horrible. I spoke to a Dr. who gave me the idea to write a letter to the baby, it helped me so much to put everything I felt into words. I still have that letter, I wrote it in 1996. In 1997 I gave birth to a healthy baby boy, so yes, there is success after an ectopic. I recently lost a son in 2008 and am currently TTC. I hope my story has helped a bit, and if theres anything else I can help you with feel free to ask.

Lori

[jennymin867]

Hi Jennifer

I am so sorry to hear about your loss.  You have certainly come to the right place!  This is a wonderful group of ladies and we are all here to lean on one another.  Most of the time we hang out on the cycle or belly buddies thread.  Feel free to join right in.  It's like family and everyone is welcome.

Jenny