Hello All New Here

[Snugelbear]

Hello all my name is Tracy, my DH and I have been ttcing since about 6 months after we got married, we will be celebrating our 8 year anniversary this year.  We have had unsuccessfull attempts of IUI with clomid. In the summer of 2008 we conceived.  It was funny though because I knew I was preg. but all of the HPT's kept coming back negative, then in the middle of the night I felt a pop and began to bleed, the next day I went into the hospital because I could not handle the pain anymore. The doc did a BHCG, when the results came back she walked into the room with a smile and said, "I have good news and bad news, the good news, we now know you can conceive the bad news you have mc the pregnanacy"  I was stunned, I did not know weather to be happy tha I had a confirmed pregnancy or to be devastated becasue it did not last.  I eventually became devistated. Well we are now back at it.  The cost of treatments in Ontario are in sane, I was lucky enough to have a physician when I got pregnant (we were living in BC for about 4 years) who gave me the IUI for free.  Now we are back here and we aree going to try to do this again, this time with temps and an OPK.  The other difference this time is for the first two years we were trying things were good, for the next 5.5 years my dh spent most of his time high, now he has been clean and sober for almost two months and he actually came to me, for the first time he activly wants to know anything he can do.

I have been through all of the dissabpointment before and am not looking forward to the emotional rollercoaster this puts me on, but if it works out then in the end it will all be worth it.  I do not think I will do the Clomid again however I am awaiting a new appointment\referral with a local OBGYN who from what my friends say is amazing.  One thing I was told out west after the Misscarriage was that the OBGYN could see the perfect string of pearls in one of my ovaries, he said indicitive of PCOS, however that was it.  He never explored it further.  I am hoping this one will, I am 35 and am starting to feel like time is running out.

I just know I can not do this alone and as much as DH is willing to be loving and supportive and do whatever it takes I need to be around women who get it.

That is the end of my rant

Cheers and baby dust to all Tracy

[Snugelbear]

Thank you everyone.  I have not had reguler periods in years, there is never a consistancy to the length in between.  I intended to start the temping thing this month but have been unable to find my basal thermometer.  My work schedule is going to make it difficult too.  For the last few months I have managed some relative consistancy to my cycles, unfortunalty I know I end up with cysts every month and in my case they always seem to be blood filled.  Sometimes it is difficult to tell if they are cysts or just my period, I have such excruciating pain every month.

[MissmyAngel]

Hi Tracy and welcome to the group. This is a very supportive group, you have come to the right place. I live in Ontario too! I hope that your new OBGYN is helpful in helping you to get pregnant again :)

[bam1014]

Welcome to our group Tracy.  It does help when you have a place to go to share your feelings and you know that everybody else will understand and is there to comfort and support you.  We have a great group of women here who have been through it all; infertility, multiple m/c's, etc.

So you mentioned temping, is this going to be your first time at it?  I've been temping for over 18 months so if you need any help, just let me know.  It may also give you some indication if you have PCOS or not.  Do you have regular periods?

I hope you find everything that you are looking for here!  SSBD!!

[Snugelbear]

Thank you :-) You are absolutly right it is nice to be around women who understand!  I am shocked apparently I found out this morning my DH has been chatting on some boards to see what he can do to help.

[deedee4321]

Baby dust to you and welcome. Just having a place to vent has made a world of difference to me. It is nice to be around other women who understand. Good luck!