I've been gone for a while, trying to get my life back together for me and my 3 year after a whole year of CHAOS!
It has been a year now that my husband had his first Major Manic Episode (tried to commit suicde, was psychotic, paranoid).
He is still in denial and taking no meds. He has left us 5 months ago for good and now lives with a woman woh happens to suffer from Boderline Pers+Bipolar.
But here is my question. Anyone has experienced or had a family member who eventually even without Meds recovered 100%.
My husband, 1 year later, seems to be a more calm, less 'suspicious' of me, less defensive and trying to be more engaging in our daughter's life. But then his life is still a mess, no job, no stable place to live, just the fact that he accepts his reality now living with a very Sick woman woh lives in a very dirty home tells me he is not the same Man I met 13 years ago.
Will have ever be the same again, without meds.
I just wanted to be more 'relaxed' about it, I wish I felt comfortabel/safe letting him out with our 3 year old, and sometimes I think it is not fair to 'See' him like this 'crazy' person. But at the same time my 3 year old's life is my responsibility.
And the worst part is he doesn't allow me to talk to his doctor so I have no feedback.
But even with good changes in his behavior , we're still gonig to court in 2 days to establish Supervised visitations w/ our daughter..
Anyone??? Any input???