Ok...to make this short, I was diagnosed as having bipolar when I was 13. I stayed on depakote for 4 years, and quit cold turkey when I graduated from HS and got kicked off my parents insurance. I seemed to be ok, in fact I was so "ok" that I started to doubt that I ever had bipolar to start with. That said, the last few months I have been going through bouts of rage and craziness that are worrying. I get so mad sometimes that my heart starts racing and I feel like I want to punch everything. I have two kids and there are times that just by being themselves, it puts me overboard and I fly off the handle without even having a chance to think (i would never hurt them...i can control it to that extent). Today, they were playing (theyre 6 and 2) and they were arguing...and I flipped out...put them in their rooms...and now I am sitting here heart racing, pissed off at the world, and I dont even know why. Is this bipolar? Has it been there the entire time? Any advice is appreciated.