Can anyone help me or give me an isea of what im feeling

[michaeljohn1000]

I have many issues to get off my chest and try to get some feedback from. If anyone can help me, i would appreciate it.

1/I grew up a happy kid, very sporty and pretty much good at all of them i competed in.
2/ I left school and start to get into reletivley high criminal activity, some made me question my morals as i always felt like i had good morals previously.Ultimatley i ended up being caught and publicly humilated throughout national news for a year.
3/ My confidence to a massive knock. also family and friend humilation made me also very embarrassed. Which made me very defensive about pretty much everything.
4/ This is when i found my attitude and behaviour chaning. I had also began smoking a lot of skunk throughout the above then i stopped and now
5/I find myself getting extreme high and lows.
6/where the highs feels like im my old self and in the lows, i dont want to speak  to any family or friends or work collegue.
7/where previously i liked to be out with friends in clubs and now id prefer to stay in, watching tv. NO MOTIVATION!!
8/ When i read this i feel like, how have i come to this? What happened to me?
9/ My sleeping patterns are out of sync, im goin to sleep at 2-3 in the morning up at 7-8 and i try my hardest not to go to work.
10/ Am i just lacking motivation,LAZY or is there more to this.

Please could someone enlighten me to some idea or advise please.

[Bluetwo]

You did get off the Skunk but the chemicals do stay in your system.
That's why your feeling so bad.
Hook up with your brother and go to NA.

http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/skunk-how-the-safe-drug-of-choice-for-the-hippy-generation-became-a-serious-health-hazard-440750.html

Good luck...my friend.
Been there and done that...except I dranked a lot when I was younger.

[michaeljohn1000]

my brother is a reovery crack and heroin addict.
and my parents are alcoholics.

I dont know if this info would help to give an accurate analysis or opinion on my situation.


Thanks again more your time