I was just told 2 and a half weeks ago that I am BP. The doctor just asked a few questions and put the answers in his computer, First time seeing him and it lasted 30 minutes....I have known that something has been wrong with mefor many years, even when I was young....I had a Hysterectomy Nov. of 06 at the age of 28. I was put on Cymbalta and was taking birthcontrol to help with the harmones....I have always had problems with depression and lying, doing things with out thinking what the consequence would be..... My Grand-mother was a Manic-depressent. My Mother I guess you can say she was...I also get the blues REAL bad in the winter...I HATE IT...plus I live in Indy....I am from the south...which makes my winters here worse...I just don't know what to believe, I want to believe that I am BP, so I would have an answer as to why I do this stupid ****. I have very intense rages at moments, or I just lay around not wanting to do anything, there are days I won't even shower. I have a family, husband, son and step-daughter, which I feel have been affected by this....I get angry very easly, and I yell.....Since seeing this Doctor-once- He gave me the starter packet for Seroquel, 50mg,100mg,200mg,300mgs....told me to take at bedtime and to call him on the 5th day, to let him know which one I did ok on...well the only one I had a problem with was the 200-I didn't go to bed within an hour and I felt as it I was gonna pass out....anyways, so I take the 300 thinking that this is fine, I felt ok the next day, not drugged up....So I have him call me in the 300, Second night taking it, I felt like I was hit with a horse tranquilizer- I was panic-y, racing thoughts, I felt like I had RLS-restless leg syndrom(which he asked me if I felt that I might have that @ my visit with him and I thought it to be strange) I was scared, but I took it again,.... Same thing....not as bad....So I started breaking them in half, felt as it I was ok on that, but I called his "go-between" and she called me in 100...now I feel like it's not enough....anyways
I have issues, I know....but can I be sure that this is Bi-Polar? or thyroid or just my hormones? I do have these-what I call a panic attack- but it's more like a bad case of deja' vu. I get scared and they only last for a few seconds, is this part of BP?
I have so many ?'s And I know I have rambled, but I need help understanding this- I am seeing a Psychologist and she agrees.... I guess,-they work together in the same office-which is what I wanted-both theropy and Meds.....
I just don't know if this is what they say it is..........Can anyone give me some answers on any of this????