I have had mental health issues since a teenager, been on and off medication for 20 years, but always told it was depression. I see a pcn most weeks and have now started CAT therapy. My symptoms go on forever but basicaly when I wake up each day (after not a lot of sleep) I then find out how I feel - sometimes I can do anything and take on the world - usually to an impossible extend for example taking on jobs that I can't do, college courses, offereing to do things for people that Idon't have time to do. Other times I struggle to get my children to school, avoiding other people, not answering the phone, shutting myself inside or driving somewhere where I don't know anyone. I have an excessive phobia of reptiles which bothers my everyday life - for this I have had CBT with a small amount of success. I have debt of over £28k from when a previous relationship went wrong and I took to spending to cope. I don't seem to keep many friends, they usualy give up on me. Can't old a job down, feel constantly guilty, have no self esteem. Sorry to rattle on but I think I have bi polar and would like other people's oppinions if they think it could be anything else?