Does any medicine actually help?

[Xila31]

I know a lot of people go through a lot of medicines until they find the right one. I can't afford to do this. I can't even afford the medicine I'm taking now.

Tonight I had a complete freak out. The worst I've had in a long, long time. I was literally beating myself. Why? Because my husband made a picture in photoshop of a bunch of women in lingerie. Now he won't speak to me.

Does the medicine help the freak outs or does it not? I mean any medicine at all period. Because if it doesn't help I can't take it. I freaked out in front of everyone. Kids, brother-in-law, husband. I just have such incredibly low self esteem I couldn't handle see that picture on my husbands computer.

It has been agreed that he didn't do anything wrong and that once again I did the wrong thing. I can't go to the doctor. So that doesn't help. Please just let me know your experience with your medications.

[bastet56]

medicine cannot fix low self esteem. you need therapy and experience for that. no medicine will keep you from freaking out but it will help to keep the blues and mania away. you need to help yourself as much as the medicine will help. good luck

[Bluetwo]

Check with
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I had a co-worker who suffered a stroke in her twenties. Abbott labs helped out with free med's. Many drug companies are offering to help those who can't afford to pay for their perscriptions.

[Xila31]

My dx is bipolar 2. Thanks for your kind words. I don't think anyone knows what to do for me. I just need to work it out on my own somehow.

[opus88]

don't be sorry for your comments, be sorry for the situation ur in!!
thats terrible and I feel bad that u cannot get proper care and medication because of money issues! just shouldn't be that way.
Here In Canada we may not have the best system but at least we can see a doctor witout having to worry abt money.
Ur really backed up against a wall with 2 rocks on either side! I don't know what I can even suggest 4u? At least these forums don't cost anyone and its a good place to vent alot of built up issues...it helps to vent and find out others are in similiar situations.
Keep talking to us and writing out all your triggers and talking them out...it may be of some help to you.........I hope others here will have more suggesstions?
hang in there girl

[Xila31]

Thanks. I can't afford to see my doctor and I can't afford more medications. We do have insurance but I still have to pay-copays which add up. I still have not been able to pay my co-pays for 2 months.

I'm sorry.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Well like you said it usually takes people a while to find the right medication combination.

I found that medication helps my freak outs unless I get stressed out because I used to go off on people for no reason at all but now I don't.  Stress causes me to relapse.

[opus88]

I know it costs money to see a therapist, does it also cost money in the U.S. to see a doctor?(I hope u have some sort of medical plan?)
I don't know what you pay for lamotrigine there...but can u not see a doctor and try another medication? There are many meds that are now generic and cost alot less,  I don't know what your dx is but perhaps an antidepressant would be more beneficial?

[Xila31]

I'm taking Lamotrigine. It is an epilepsy medicine but they use for mood, too. Maybe you know that already. It was already agreed that the picture is not the problem.

I can't go to a therapist. I have no money. I was hoping this medicine would help, but I guess it won't help in the way I was hoping. I guess I will just have to wait again to get help. Thanks for your answer.

P.S. despite not being able to afford help, I also make too much money for public assistance.

[tweekie]

Even if your reaction was a little over the edge, which I don't know was not there, the fact that this picture on the computer is disagreeable isn't so far fetched. I think you should speak with your husband alone, in a calm tone and explain what your feelings are behind this picture, that it hurts your feelings or whatever it may be. Medication does not stop you from freaking out. It only aids in balancing your mood and reducing mania. You need to speak with a therapist about behavior modification and cognitive therapy. Unfortunately there is no magic pill. What medication are you taking? Is it a mood stabilizor or an antidepressant or what?