Anyone else not engage the day well?

[zzzmykids]

Prior to diagnoses, about ten years or so ago.  I was still BP11!  But I could stay busy, function, leave the house more often and stay away from tv or computer as much as now.
I am not on antidepressantss, currently, I believe at least five to six months. Whether depressed or fine, like now, complacent in activities.  
I fell about twl weeks ago over my big dog and hit knee and hip onto tile floors.  Since then I try not to agitate the hip especially and to top it off I have a tailbone issue that has caused severe pain and not fixable.  My chiropractor treats both. He completely healed a thumb with no cartiledge to the point I can type better on puter.  So he is working on the hips soft tissue, tailbone and knee is now healed. So I do have a few excuses......
But I don't want to continue in this pattern but have no motivation after so long of being a drone.
Any encouragement or ideas.
I KNOW put one foot in front of the other, but remember this agitates the pain in the hip.....so get creative in responses.  Thanks, all.
Oh....one important detail, I have been depressed, manageable, since about eleven and now 54 and this IS the first time during this period I am WITHOUT depression....it is weird.
zzzmykids

[Xila31]

I'm glad it is getting better. Pain is the worst. I have never had a hip thing but I had a c-section and that hurt pretty bad. I couldn't get out of bed by myself. It was like my whole middle was broken and I couldn't bend. I'm sure a hip is worse though, since it is a bone.

[zzzmykids]

Thank you both for responding. The hip is getting better as long as I don't over do it. Otherwise I begin limping and hurt.  
I just don't want to become sedantary, again,
Funny doing the mapquest, lol.
I have a great chiropractor/kinesiologist. He is working on the soft tissue of the hip and the flair up of my tailbone that was bruised too because of it's mishapen figure it got hurt too.
It's ok.  We all have things that happen.  I am fortunate to have so little wrong or bothering me @54.
So, again, thank you for conversing and for listening. :)
zzzmykids

[paranoid_cataclysm]

I had something just like your injury where I was putting stuff in a shed and my foot caught the boards of the floor and I fell as I was stepping in it.  My knee and hip were messed up for a while and extremely sore but they healed but I was younger then than I am now which probably was a good factor in it healing without permanent problems.  I ended up missing school when it was swollen up the most.  I just wish my back could say the same... eight years later and sometimes it has pains so bad it can incapacitate me BUT luckily for me this isn't often and doesn't last long at least for now.  I used to self medicate a lot for it as well before I quit drinking.  I'd love to take narcotics for it or something of that nature but unfortunately there are none designed for safe long term use currently, ah well.  A chiropractor told me my back was in bad shape and she actually had wtf reactions to how bad it's been kinked up so I guess I feel better knowing I'm not just exaggerating a small pain.  The F'n doctor who saw me in the hospital after I fell out of the tree had me up and walking not even an hour after it happened which I can't even describe the amount of pain I felt the moment I stood up.  It kinda ***** but you're going to have to take it slow and easy until it gets better and don't move around fast for extended periods of time or push yourself even if it's not bothering you that day... that will put you in a world of pain.  I thought it was sucky when I didn't have depression for the first time in a long time like you and actually felt like moving around fast and stuff but I found out my body would have no part of it.  When I injured my leg pretty bad where I have somewhat of a limp from it when it was healing sometimes when I stepped on it it would totally give out and I'd come close to falling in the floor and feel a ton of pain so I just took it slow and tried to avoid the articulation which this happened in.  You can do like me if you don't feel like walking around town but want to and just go on Google Maps and hopefully your town is there and they have a street view where they took photos while driving by and you can look around like it's 3D and walk around in it.  I was surprised that they actually had my hometown in it since it only has a population of 6,000 people and is only notable for the births of miracle whip and William Jennings Brian.  Keep yourself busy with reading or watching movies or something as well.  Sorry I don't have any really creative responses except for I guess the Google Maps thing, it's hard to compensate.  Maybe you could also study things, I love studying just about anything so I know more although this sort of ***** because I'll want to talk to someone about something like mitochondria for example and practically no one knows how to talk about that kind of sh*t.

[Xila31]

I'm sorry about your hip. I've never had hip problems or any type of thing like that, so I have no idea.

I always have concentration problems and problems getting stuff done now, I can't focus, I forget what I'm doing or saying or where I'm going. I feel like a huge mess. Several years ago this was not the case. As long as what I am doing is moving forward and directing me I do okay. But if I have to sit and complete a list of tasks that are not related, I jump from one to the other and I can't seem to get anywhere and I feel overwhelmed. I am also BP2.

I would say this is the first year of my life that I fee like I'm actually failing at being me. For example, when I was in college it appears I was having some psychosis issues. However, at that time I was going to school every day, getting my work done, and carrying a 4.0. Today I feel pretty proud of myself if I can complete one project and dial a phone number on the first try.

I too have this huge complacancy for the things I'm doing. I just get to the point of wondering, "Why am I doing this?" I have to force myself to keep going. I don't have an excuse of a hurt hip. And I think I'm ramping up again and not depressed but not happy but not unhappy. Not okay, though. I just feel it coming. >..< But, I'm not really doing that great so...

[zzzmykids]

I wrote the above on Dec. 02.  Tried to erase it today.  Have had no responses. Didn't know that happened.  Guess no one has any suggestions or comments on how to get moving with a painful hip.  Hmmmmm