I was on a mood stabilizer and Wellbutrin seriously screwed me up. It is known to cause manias. Any antidepressant is. One of the mood stabilizers like lamotrigine, lithium, of valproate you may find helpful. Ziprexa is also a good one for many people but does cause a lot of weight gain but the weight gain does level off once you are on the drug for a while and it is very expensive but you can get assistance through the company to pay for it if needed.
If you can you need to go and see a psychiatrist so they can help you with medications. And considering your last psychiatrist put you on an antidepressant while having manias I would seriously consider going to see someone else. Truly. Anyone who would do that doesn't deserve their license in my opinion.
I now take lamotrigine and Geodone (Zeldox here in Canada). The Geodone causes some anxiety but makes the crazy go away much better than the lamotrigine alone.
Hello!! I am so glad that you have posted here, we can help you!!
First of all big hugs for everything you have been through at such a tender age! I am 10 years older than you and can't imagine the grief of losing a Husband so young, and becoming a mother at the same time.
Right. listen carefully to this, you need to get an appointment with your Psychiatrist immediately, not because I think your a danger or anything but simply because your medication is just so, so so wrong!!
Wellbutrin is an Anti Depressant ( and a smoking cessation aid!) as you say, you are having mostly manic episodes, therefore you do not need an Anti Depressant! AntiDepressants are contraindicated to Bipolar as they cause Mania, rapid cycling and mixed episodes!
The only way this medication would be kind of okay would be if it was combined with a mood stabiliser ( even though my pyschiatrist still won't give me an Anti Depressant even though I am on mood stabilisers!)
It is no wonder you feel you can't control things honey! This is not your fault it is the Wellbutrin!
All you need is a mood stabiliser, such as Lithium, Sodium Valproate etc, and maybe an anti pyschotic, although there are some meds out there that do a bit of both, i.e Zyprexa.
Once you get on this kind of medication you will soon see that it can be controlled and you certainly can be a fit mother!
You deserve all the help in the world, please, please, please go see your doctor, this can be sorted out so easily!!
Good Luck and Hugs
Please keep us posted!