Im sexually distressed he just gets me horny then when he gets off he passes out. I can feel myself to feel good im so low in self esteem and i cant get it threw to him. I need to get off and the closest thing to it get when i go to the bathroom and thats only abit and it disinigrates itselfs with the bile thwt is coming out of me... Im so frusytated lol help!?
The other day boyfriend wokeup and saw a note i wrote when breaking down the previous night he came an held passionatly for the first time like he kinda understood at that moment but its gone noe anyways he was crying and i wokeup and just laughed i did not find it funny in anyway but it was ******... Weed is the thing that keeps us close i guess
thats a really unhealthy relationship but you two seem to really care about each other in a different kind of way. i think you should definitely talk to someone whether it be a shrink, a friend, him, or even i would be happy to talk to you. im 17, very self conscious, in a weird relationship, and i love being there for people. anyone really. so if you would like, email me and we can talk more :)
as for the weight and nausiousness, the weed and unhealthy eating could play a huge factor in that, and maybe eat more healthy and cut back on the weed. you dont have to stop completely, but maybe just smoke less of it. im also happy to talk to you about that if you would like :)
I really dont think emailing is good but thank you im an emotional wreak lol cryed reading your comment bro xD he is the only person ive talked to about anything i talk to him i ruin him with futture assumptions and i just know he has never cared about anything really like it was all about fun and drugs and sex and ... **** like tht with him. I met him a year and a half after he realized **** that but now hes just depressed like when we met were happy then he moved in with me and my dad and now we just stay in my room... All the time besides to grab and sell weed this isent me i hate this but when he ahows the smalleat intret in doing somthing benifital to us i say fuxk it and act like him we are the aame person with many defects to one another i hate myself butbi dont knowbhow i can love him i cant leave him i need hom but imjust so distressed, same with him. Buut boy os he strong, tht and he hasent clued in how bad i am yet
maybe you should tell him exactly how you feel. if you do that he might understand and maybe hell back off sexually wise and maybe you two can try and cut down no weed. no relationship can work without each others support to do good things and without complete honesty and trust. i think telling him everything you said here is your best bet
thank you for the consideration, ive tried. I dont want to think hes not the one for me. I just think im not the one for him. He doesnt seeem to want to work hard like put any effort towards anything. Im still going to try, untill i absolutly cant take it no more. why put yourself threw pain? I have no iddea, i like to think hes worth it and that he will come to his sences and remeber... i can leave, hes hurt me. AHH lmao
give it till the end of the year... (december)... if he hasnt come to his senses by then, he might not ever... or at least in time.