Your doctor is correct. I do have to admire that you have, without dying already, figured out the magic formula for keeping depression away but the road that this method of treating depression you are riding on ends in disaster. Unfortunately you may not believe me now and that is ok. I want to let you know that I speak from personal experience. I have almost died several times from this type of experimentation. Your heart may not stop beating for a while, I cannot say when, but even as it beats your emotional connection to the world slips away shortly before you are not able to make it in this world at all.
If you do believe me than we can talk further but if you do not than you likely see me as someone who is trying to go against what you may feel is the secret to fighting depression. EIther way is ok. I have helped people who want to find another way and I have endured the arguments that come with challenging this way of fighting depression.
Let me know what your thoughts are please.