Psychiatrists in NC?

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Here's some background; I'm currently 17 and live with my parent's. I've been emotionally/physically/educationally/medically abused for years. I've never had a regular doctors appointment since I was a baby, my parents ignore my requests get an annual shots, won't take me to a doctor for anything unless it affects my ability to play sports, etc. Only time I was ever taken to any form of a doctor was after a lot of arguing when I chipped my tooth. I was pulled out in third grade and my mother lied about home schooling me for years. She lied to me and told me I was 'smart enough' and didn't need to do school work. When I realized what was happening, I told my dad, who lives at home (my parents aren't divorced), and he wouldn't do anything. I'm currently enrolled in an online high school after years of fighting with them and getting an education. I've been abused by my mother, father and brother in some way, shape or form the majority of my life.

I learned when I was about 13, maybe a bit younger, that my family has a history of bipolar disorder and schizo-type disorders. I'd felt depressed since I was 8 years old, and it just intensified from there on out. I researched bipolar disorder, and immediately felt like it fit like a glove. I started a journal, and one day, I felt ashamed, and telling myself, 'nothing's wrong with you', I burnt the journal.

From there on, things got worse. Last summer, I went through a period of very heavy shoplifting, binge drinking, 'soft-core' drugs, and a very self-centered, angry composition. Anger drove me in everything. I was fighting hard to get some form of education, and was considering getting myself emancipated. I felt like I was on top of everything but put in a cage at the same time.

At the end of the summer, I was told some bad news, and got into a terrible job. My mood fell from confidence to depression worse than anything else. I went to a friend and told him I was getting worse. He mentioned this summer, and said he was afraid I had suffered a manic episode, because it scared him how reckless I was.

After a few months of this, I did a bit of weed with my boyfriend, and fell into what seemed very much like psychosis. I forgot who I was, where I was, who he was. He said I was screaming and fighting him, I was afraid of him, and I had no idea what was going on. I was apparently like this for three hours. I don't remember much, but I have flashbacks to what I do.

Due to my parent's, I'm too afraid to go to a psychiatrist until I'm 18 in the summer. If anybody knows of a psychiatrist in NC (preferably in the Charlotte area) they could recommend, and possibly give their opinion on my experience, I'd appreciate it. I can clarify more if needed.