Quitting meds & waiting

[tres1965]

I'm back home. Well, WE are back home. Christmas was a HUGE flop. Everything that could go wrong did.My Daughter decided she would go too & that helped with traveling. I had $ 200.00 of My Daughter's Christmas present stolen, which was devastating to her, & in the meantime me as I will have to replace it. I got to see all of my relatives, & son's & Daughter of course.
My health is on it's way up. They removed the wound vac! YEA..I have 3 or 4 more weeks & I am finished medically. Which as you all know was a HUGE drain on me. Thanks for your understanding!
I had thought about moving back to my hometown, but my Daughter would lose her college schloraship. (SP)
I was asked to marry my long-time 'friend'. But, I said NO, that is the healthiest thing for me at this point in life. I now realize that I have to take care of me, no one else. That was a HARD lesson. I had thought every broken dream/pleasure was wrapped up in kids, but, it is time for me to face the fact they are grown...
My Daughter went off her Lamictal cold turkey & refuses to take it. She says she doesn't need it anymore. I'm at my wits end trying to keep balanced. She will either get with the program, or go for in-patient help. I can't do it alone anymore. I am stronger physically, WELL getting there, but I am going to crash if she doesn't get with it. I did thank her tonight for remembering my B'day yesterday. I guess I'm tired, but not as tired as three weeks ago! *YES*
sorry this is so long, just needed to rant about med withdrawls & teenagers! Thanks..

[tres1965]

Thank you!
You know the tiny steps are better than the huge ones, I had forgotten that. I can finally start to climb a few steps, sleep *wow* without dreams!! All in all I am blessed to come out of this fog, finally. My mind is settling in, I am remembering stuff again, & the shaking is even better! I have 2 HUGE achievements this week...*drum roll* I was able to write out the checks for bills for the 1st time since the strokes! Then since they removed that vac, I can once again stand in the shower! YES!

My Daughter is an area I need to work on, but I realize  I am just 1 person  &  can do so much!
Thanks again!

[bernie40]

Its great to hear you sounding so much brighter!

Teens are a nightmare and unfortunately think that us parents know nothing!  Yet we as parents end up getting the rough end of the stick when we are proved right - no win situation really.

I am very proud of the way you handled the proposal.  You are so right to think of "you" for a change and make sure that you are in a good place before committing to anyone else or taking on anyone else.  This shows true strength of character, another sign of how much better you are.

I hope things continue to improve and that your daughter gets herself together.

I'm really chuffed for you :-)  :-)

:-)

[tres1965]

oops, I meant to be sarcastic as could be for thanking me for the B'day wishes. She spent the night at a friends house & I just waited to see if she'd remember on her own. The saddest part is she shrugged it off. I can't take this up & down behavior she is expressing now. I understand her Dad is in & will be for 20 yrs, prison. But it isn't of my doings, but I am the solo bad guy...grrrr
I am more balanced from the Depakote withdrawls now. This next neuro app't they are going to 'scribe me a new *L* wonder drug!