sorry, bear, but the best i can do for ya is a virtual hug and to tell ya to hang in there. I'm seriously not familiat with conadian systems so I'm not much good to ya. Send me a private message if ya need to IM chat....I have yahoo.
I can only imagine what you are going through.
Just release your stress by plopping on the couch for a few, watch some senseless tv, and then regroup. As humans, we are great survivors.
I cant really preach much, cuz Im not doing that well either..
I just hope everything gets better. =)
I am sorry to hear about the situation that you are finding yourself in right now. This is not an easy illness to deal with alone. I could not imagine trying to cope with what you are, you should be proud that you are doing as well as you are and that your caring for you child. Things will eventually even out. As for the money situation God bless you... it is hard enough without having to worry about that. I am so sorry your having to go through so much.
Please stay on your medication- I thought that Canada had socialized medicine that the medical care was less expensive as well as medications? Pardon my ignorance. I just hate your having such a hard time.
The biggest thing is don't worry about your weight right now... Easier said than done but get back on your medication get stable. You can't consider doing anything with out that. Once that is done then worry about the rest.
Unfortunately alot of the medications for Bipolar cause weight gain. Lithium alone usually causes carbohydrate cravings and those simply sugars with the water retention that lithium causes, that will cause you to gain weight, if your not careful. Not trying to tell you how to diet especially with your circumstances right now but when things get more normal you could look at what your eating and see if there is something you can do about that. Sometimes eating more protein and less simple sugars (bread, potatoes, sweets) and more green leafy veggies and getting out and walking will help to balance out, what the lithium adds. Cutting out sweet sodas and drinking more water helps too. My daughter became unstable in August and still hasn't quite gotten back to her level of normal, in the mean time between then and now she has gained almost 25 pounds (she is 15 and is only 5ft6in) she has huge self esteem issues and well NO clothes that fit. But trying to tell her how to eat while she isn't stable is like adding fuel to the fire. She thinks when I mention what she is eating that I am telling her she is fat (which she is not but that is her mind set). Her counselor told her to just NOT worry about it once she gets stable then we will get the weight under control. So keep that mind set once things get more normal I will worry about my weight then.
I wish I could help, I will keep you in my thoughts. Stay strong.
come here as often as you need. We understand like nobody else in the world can.
you and your son are in my prayers
I have been homeless and on disability. I did move into a small apartment for a few years. I was pretty poor and not too happy about it, but it turned out to be temporary. I've worked the same job now for 10 years. I've had ups and downs with my bipolar during that time, but I've been able to stay afloat. I don't earn much money now, but I work with kids and that has seemed to be a positive influence on my life and my moods.
What I really want to say is that I've had weight gain, too, and have been very upset about it. I lost 20lbs. a couple of years ago, but still want to drop another 20lbs.
But recently I've been coming out of a depression a bit and suddenly it's not bothering me so much. I'm crediting this to feeling better in general with better self-esteem.
Take the help you can get right now and reach out where you can. This may only be a temporary situation. Getting back on your meds is the best "first line" action you can take. This isn't a good time to be making changes to your meds (with out you doc).
sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. i find the weight gain can only be controlled with absolute attention to diet and exercise and with lithium , drink lots of water to help your kidney function. have you tried reading? there's a very good book called the 'mindful way through depression' and like most books take what you need and leave the rest. it does contain some good insights into stopping negative thinking and has some good memitation exercises. hope it all starts to get better for you soon.
I completely understand your depression and anxiety being compounded by weight gain. It can really do a number on your self-esteem, which is already fragile. I don't have any answers for your financial situation, but I don't think stopping your meds is going to help you cope with these challenges. Ideally, you would find a doctor that would consider trying other meds, but in the meantime, if these were helping your mood, it is probably best to stay on them. Being off of them will only cause your outlook to be worse.