What to do when you can't suppress it anymore?

[BeeKeeper]

I could just scream...no i mean I TRULY feel like screaming.  ...but i can't.  I'm sitting in an office and this tension, anxiety, frustration, depression has been raging in me for days....building little by little.  The more I push it down, the stronger it gets.  I'm tired, I just want to go curl up in a ball, absolutely know one in my world understands where i am and how i feel - how could they.  Yet through the storm inside me i have to be a husband, father, manager, do presentations, smile and be professional.

Yes, I'm on all my meds...started a new one last week - abilify and am weaning down the lamictal - not sure if this is a result or not.

What do you do when you get here (as so many of us too often do)?  If anyone who has a soundproof room i can borrow for about an hour...that would be great.

[bastet56]

Got a thick pillow? how about a car ride by yourself on a country road with the windows up and the radio full on? Scream and yell to your heart's content. I do and yes the changes in meds can cause this. I do understand as I have to be the strength in my family.

[BeeKeeper]

Thanks...Akathisia is exactly what was going on.  after being on Abilify for two weeks without positive change - actually strong negtive change - I stopped taking it and went back to the lamictal.

I greatly appreciate the comment/advice.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Yeah I hear you I have a sh*t load of problems like that some of which I don't know how I even function with but I still scrape by somehow.  Some of them are ruining my life and I can't stop it.  I'm so jaded I don't even have the desire to just scream like you like I should have.

[PhotoSnap]

I would suspect it might be from the Abilify that you are feeling this way.
I pretty much reacted that way to it.  I was told it was Akathesia and had to quit taking it.
I was tense, anxious, restless, and felt like I wanted to jump out of my skin and scream.
Benadryl helps some people with it but I would definitely tell your Dr.  Hope you feel
better soon.

[mags22]

if you're in an office building take a 15 minute break in the stairwell if there is one and do a few sets of stairs.  The physical exertion will help relieve some of the tension in your muscles and release endorphins which will help calm you....so you might get a bit sweaty!  

[CrzyBeautiful1]

No soundproof room here, but 3 very loud kids who are used to hearing me scream all day, so ur safe here! LOL  I'm all too familiar with what ur going thru right now. It seems like that's the constant mood I'm always stuck in anymore.

I would say take a nap, but I'm assuming ur at work. Can u read a book for a few? That helps me. When I'm raging I shut myself in my bedroom and read, watch tv or take a nap while the hubby watches the kids. If it's only me with them, as bad as it sounds to say I put a baby gate up to keep them in the back of the house and I got to my room for a bit. I have to do this so I don't lose it in front of the kids. U might go to a place in ur head that makes u smile. A vacation u took or something. OR just get someone to tell u a really funny story :)