bipolar poems

[Bubulous]

I have posted these before but it has been a while so I thought I would post them again.  It states what depression and mania are like for me:

A Complex Mind

Darkness (original)

The storm’s rolling in it’s after my soul
My brain has switched off I’m losing control
The wind’s picking up my roof is now gone
Losing my grip I try to hold on
An invisible foe ties a new anchor
I can’t run away my life is in danger
How do you fight what you cannot see
This fatal depression smothering me
My walls are crumbling I thought they were stronger
I close my eyes I can take this no longer
My clothes are ripped from me I cling to my soul
It’s all I have left I’m losing control
I’m fat and I’m dumb I’m fragile and scared
I can’t concentrate this life isn’t fair
My opinions are stupid I’m losing my will
It’s time to escape by taking a pill
The addict takes over he copes with the rain
He helps me escape by numbing the pain
The ground falls beneath me I begin to fall fast
My gift is a curse how long can this last
This cycle’s not new I’ve seen this before
I pray for a cure bipolar no more
A bittersweet ending to a bittersweet life
Admitting I’m powerless I come to the Brook
The answers are written in this simple notebook
My life is in your hands please give me the tools
I’ll attend all the groups and follow the rules
I emerge from the hole the sun’s shining bright
I open my eyes and I’m through with the fight
Through all my hard work my brain is switched on
The mania returns and the darkness is gone


A Complex Mind

"Mania"

The darkness is over, I feel it again
My brain has switched on, here comes my friend
Why am I here, do trees have a soul
I think I'm Jesus, I'm losing control
Alone in my room I start to cry
You don''t understand, I want to die
I'll slice my wrist and laugh as it bleeds
Complete detachment is just what I need
I love everybody, you people are dumb
Start something jackass my body is numb
I like simple people, they all make me laugh
They take for granted the peace that they have
I'll dumb down your problems, I'll show you the way
I could fix all you issues in less than a day
With your simple minds you people talk slow
I don't need to sleep, I'm losing control
I smell all the colors and see people's souls
I'm hearing the silence, my intelligence grows
I'm feeling fat, I need to stop eating
That guy startled me, he needs a good beating
What day is it, how many have passed
I cannot keep up, they're moving too fast
I travel through time, you people move slow
What's wrong with my mind, I'm losing control
It's all slowing down, my bright light goes black
I knew it would happen, the darkness is back

[CRSeaside]

Never Ever. Love it!  Pamela

[Kate111222]

Brilliant. I got tingles at the " I think I'm Jesus"

[rogelio63]

great poems,,you're really great at putting your feelings down on paper. Keep 'em coming.

Rodger

[Bubulous]

Never Ever

I’m never ever done
Today I'll fight again
The world’s already won
If I have already given in
I need to gain momentum
For these hurtles that I’ll face
I’ll never cross the finish line
If I never run the race
I need some inspiration
I need to see the light
I’ll never finish the book
If I don’t sit down and write
I’ll never fall in love
I’ll never even flirt
I know I’ll never try
I’m too scared of being hurt
I must believe in something
In something else’s will
I’ll never find my faith
If I can’t believe it’s real

[weaver71]

I think writing has possibly saved my life at times, definitely helped me hold it together for sure. "If you want to know how sloppy your thoughts are, write them down."-Virginia Wolfe

[Bubulous]

Hey bud....been a while.  I am overjoyed to see that almost everyone is still here.  I really didn't want to leave this last time but I let other people make me feel guilty for being on here so much and I am happy to say that I am over that now.  
I am independent now and am retired so I get to do whatever the f I want lol
Thanks everyone for your kind words.  Writing is very therapeutic for me and I enjoy sharing what I have done.  Most of my poems are about addiction, depression, or love.
Loving being back!!!!!  :)

[CRSeaside]

This has got to be the Best Group on the Internet.
Thank you for sharing. That IS how it feels. Pamela

[adel_ezz]

Hi Bub

nice to hear from you. Your poems are lovely keep going. They say good poems arise from difficult circumstances. You find in yours the true feelings of a person who is really suffering.

I always like it
good morning

[Midijane]

Whew, powerful words. Well said. Thanks Bub

[weaver71]

I read this to my family and they said it was right on. My daughter, 11 yrs old, loved it, especially the mania part. Thanx for sharing.

[ROSYouralright]

Love it bub! Thanks for sharing!