Hi. I am 11 weeks pregnant with my 5th child. I am 32 years old, 5'4" and about 80 lbs overweight (ugh!). Anyhow, I HAVE to go on some sort of BC after this baby is delivered. I can't be having more kids as I am already overwhelmed and then some. In the past, I was on the Depo shot but it made me moody and gain weight. Then I tried BC Pills a few times and the same thing; moodiness and a clot scare. It ended up not being a blood clot, but a bursted blood vessel. But since it happened right after starting a BC Pill, I associate the two and am 100% freaked out about clots now (I suffer with Anxiety/Panic Disorder to make things worse). Lastly, after my 3rd child I was going to get my tubes tied. But after a nurse came in and basically talked me out of it due to she said I was still young and could want more kids in the future, I opted out. My fears of the actual surgery helped make that decision easier as well. Through all this, my Hubby has repeatedly said that he would get a Vasectomy, but he has yet to do so to this day. He has his own fears, obviously. I can't deprend on him that he'll go through with it, so I need to take matters in to my own hands. With all this being said, my questions is- what can I do to make a 'right choice'? And to not be so fearful of things such as blood clots or a tubal ligation? What do you all think of IUD's? Can anyone out there give me their fear turned in to success stories? I'd appreciate any input on this. I want to make this decision now and be totoally clear on it. Thanks much. Blessings to all.