Obsession

[littlestar500]

I was recently diagnosed with BPD tho i'm not sure i fit exactly. My most disruptive symptom is that i become obsessed with people almost to the point of stalking them, searching for them on the internet, going to places i'll no they'll be. There always aquantances such as my gym instructor, my doctor, and are always of th same sex as me. Does anyone else have these types of obsessions either with or without BPD?

[diemyn]

I sure have had some ridiculous obsessions. But to me, even though I didn't know them well, I felt like they were a soulmate. And i don't think that I meet anyone by chance. I think that every person has been carefully placed in my path, in my life. The problem with this started later than the behavior did. People get creeped out by the intensity with which I approach them and back away causing me to hang on tighter to a relationship they don't even realize exist between us, since they don't think and act at the soul level. I've met so many people that seem like soul partners and some of them turn out to be crazy relationships for while. Others there's just no getting to.
Now I realize that people come into my life to teach me about myself through the experiences we have together and it makes it easier to accept when they don't feel the connection as I feel it.

Love and Light,
Diemyn

[WarriorButterfly]

I totally have these types of obsessions, but I am diagnosed with Borderline as well as Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

[Kileegaga]

I have had infantuations since I was a little girl it wasn't until I ran into my English teach and became madly obsessed same I would get to school early so I could with every waking moment of school till this day I check out all the cars I knew she,force and see if she is in it .. This was when I was about 13 14 now I'm 22 almost 10 years have gone by and tonight I'm sick to my stomach I dream about her still and I'm tired of it but I'm what could help

[Kileegaga]

Sorry about the random stuff

[wandering_child]

I've had these obsessions before for sure. Even long before I was diagnosed. The intensity to which I like people when I do, or when I hate them, has always been uncomfortable to people. I've learned to hide it better. But still, stronger than ever, I always have a "favorite person" or two, and that person is sometimes all I can think about. Male or female. I think about them 24/7 romantically or like a friend, but that person just becomes so perfect and put on a pedestal. Even if I know they have faults and things I wouldn't like if I became closer to them. And often I do go places I think they will be, just to possibly "run into them by chance".

Same with hating people. Sometimes I will hate a person soooo much, justified or not, and they will fill up my thoughts and make me get nervous and angry and shake. I can feel my heart racing and often almost throw up. No matter how much I try to tell myself its illogical, I can't help it.

[louilou420]

This sounds alot like myself. I became obsessed with a guy from work. On the outside you would not be able to tell, in the inside I was pining away for him daily, looking for his name on the internet, arranging to be on pairings he would be. My obsessions are SO intense and I am an intense person .This does scare people away. It also scares me because I experience rejection as a result which only worsens my bpd and continues the cycle. On the outside I look dis attached and cold almost, on the inside the anxiety and fear when I meet someone I really like is almost so unbearable it is not rational of a sane person...

[ILADVOCATE]

I did before I recovered from schizoaffective disorder. If you are doing anything harmful to other people it is always of concern. Stalking can come from psychotic obsessions. Don't worry what mental illness it is. It could be bpd. It could be something else perhaps but do seek help.