In need of spiritual vibes.

[boninclyde]

Just wanted to ask for some spiritual vibes from you guys. Most of you here know my story. Diagnosed July 06 breast cancer. Masectomy August 06. I have been watching a growth in my stomach about an inch from my belly button to the right. It is now the size of a softball. I go today for ultrasound and possible biopsy. This is one time I hope this is only a fat pocket in my stomach. Send me those vibes. I am scared and need them terribly.

[JayF]

The docs can do a CT scan without the dye. I am allergic so I never get the dye. Supposibly they can see better with the dye  - so it is recommended - but like me - I am allergic so they have to make due without it. If they need more info they do an MRI.

Hope everything turns out in your favor soon. Keep us posted. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

[boninclyde]

JayF thanks for caring.  It was a terribly busy week. I went for an ultrasound early in the week and the tech wasn't there and the doctor said he could do one be got called to an emergency at the hospital. (why they scheduled it when the tech wasn't there is beyond me). So it was scheduled a few days later. The tech was there and did some explaining to me as to what she saw. But again the doctor did not see me because he was called to the hospital again. Just my luck. I have had 2 fibroids for a year that are aging and may go away soon. I now have 4 cyst that I did not have on ultrasound in November. November is the same month I started taking tamoxifen but doctors say cyst are not a side effect. I have three (a mass) on my right ovary and 1 one my left ovary. I have no pain from these. She also said my uterus was very full and thickened and it looked like I would be having a very heavy period. Well I started that Thursday and it has been very light. He wants me to come back in 2/3 months for another ultrasound. I am going to call my onco on Monday to see if I can go off the tamoxifen for a few months to see if these go away and see if they are only cyst. However, the softball size area (I want call it a lump because because nothing can be felt) in my stomach is not the result of the cyst or the fibriods so I got no answers there. They did not see anything on ultrasound but said it may be deeper than what can be seen. The doctor did call however  and want to, at my decision go in for a look and see. I am so scared of being put to sleep again that if they go in they are going to do it once and take it all out. So haven't made that decision yet. For now it is sit and wait. I still may see my reg pc and hope he will maybe send me for a cat or something. Does anyone know what test would be most reliable? I hate that dye **** also. Has anyone else on tamoxifen had cyst? Was it from the med? How long did it take for them to go away?
Again thanks for the support and prayers. Keep praying and I'll keep posting with updates.

[JayF]

How did you make out? Have you got any news yet? Was wondering, cause I was thinking hernia. Let me know when you get the results. Sending prayers your way in the meantime.

[boninclyde]

No I did not do reconstruction yet I just wanted the cancer gone. Thank you for trying though.

[JayF]

Did you the tram flap (abdominal) surgery? Cause that can sometimes lead to a hernia. At least that is what I was told.

[suzi-q]

How did everything go...I am a day late, but you will be in my prayers...hopefully it will be prayers of thanksgiving that everything turned out well...Please let us know.  May God be with you.

[JayF]

Just wanted to mention that my brother had a lump also in same area above belly button, and it turned out to be a hernia. Did the doc mention this as a possibility?

[boninclyde]

My oncologist mentioned a possible intestenal hernia. I went to see my OBGYN because my onco thought that was a good idea since he could see many things in the stomach. When I called for the appointment they said his ultrasound person wasnt there but if he felt an emergency he could do it himself. So while I was there he got 2 calls to go to the hospital. He had 1 emergency C section and a baby to deliver so I did not get the ultrasound. I am so disappointed that I now may have to wait until the 26th of March since that was his only other appointment. He did feel around but had no ideas. He could see the area and so could his nurse. Nurse said possibly a fat pocket from the tamoxifen. So now I wait. Thank you all keep me in your thoughts. This is all so hard.

[emerald627]

I have been on and off this web site since September 2006 when I was diagnosed with DCIS.  Had a lumpectomy on October 16 and another on October 30 to widen the margins.  Did 6 and a half weeks of radiation.  Yesterday I went for a follow up mammogram and sonogram.  Looks good - I think - they saw something on the sonogram but are pretty sure it is scar tissue.  I will see what my surgeon thinks when he gets the results.  I have seen your name on here often, giving advice and support whenever you can.  I want you to know how much that is appreciated and I want you to know that you will be in my prayers.  Think positive thoughts and be strong.  We are all in this together and all know that fear you are feeling right now.  Don't jumpt to any conclusions because there is really no benefit in that - although it is easier to say then to actually do that.  Let us know how everything turns out.  And thanks again.

[Amy1973]

I seem to be somewhat in your shoes - breasts cancer in June - July double masectomy.  I have spots in my liver and lungs - they are just watching and not sure what they are.  All I do is try to keep positive and know that I am able to live each day.  There might be something that happens to me tomorrow that is awful - but I am here today and living the life god has given me.

I believe that WE can beat this.  I have read lots of books lately but one I am reading now is the best to lift your spirits.  It's by Lance Armstrong - It's not about the bike.  It really does show that you can have one of the worst cancers and have it spread and you can fight it.  He believed in himself.  I am always going to look back at this book when times are bad for me and pull from his strength.

I will say a little prayer for you - that god comforts you and holds you during your tests and results.

[sisterfriend]

I will stand with you in prayer for healing and peace. I have a verse for you from my favorite book in the Bible-Psalms
Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to You, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been my refuge, a stong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in Your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of Your wings (Psalm 61:1-4)
Restore me, O God Almighty; make Your face shine upon me, that I may be delivered(Psalm 80:7)
Just know that someone has prayed for your recovery and results.

I did read your response to me in the other forum and asked you another question last night. Let me know how everything goes.
May Gods Peace be with you.
sisterfriend