ugh..waiting is hell..I want to hear ..then again..I do NOT..I know when I see who;s calling I will have the urge to NOT answer..but know I HAVE to..I was afraid of the pain last night and today..but it was none to speak of..so up side there. :) .I was fearing my health would slowly start decline after the biopsy..the beginning of the end.. I did have some Zanax but since I had to drive home..didnt take it. my co-worker prayed for me...I had a very nice Dr./attendant yesterday..she prayed for me..my doctor and his wife prayed for me...which made me feel some better..(but still didnt tell my family .thats hard!! really hard...but have to say am hoping/praying all this will come out ok..so NO need to tell...can you spell "denial"?).I just keep thinking I just cant do this...cant face this....feel I have used up all my strength in the past 6 years since my husband of 42 years left me high and dry..worked thru a foreclosure and personal bankruptcy .got my twins thru college ..all the while working over 50 hrs a week(after only working part time most my married life) just to keep my head above water...I just dont know if I have "any" strength left ...
but a sigh of relief yesterday over...now the waiting game ...dont know what to expect..when I get "the call."..will I comprehend what is being told to me..doubt it..whats a good prognosis? what isnt? ugh..yes I am asking.. why me? punishment for not having enough faith..??? I just feel numb..and then the holidays coming up..all ruined now..boohoo..not fair esp to my family.how can I put on a happy face? ok pity party over thx for listening.
If the procedure was terribly painful you should have ask for some relief and even something to relax you before it was started. Most biopsies are done under a local anesthetic and may be a bit uncomfortable but not painful. As we all know that waiting, no matter how short the time is AWFUL. You know we all must do what is required and we are never afforded any guarantees in this life ... we are all equipped to handle things when we are faced with them. I suggest that you might consult your own Physician for something that might help with your anxiety about this current situation. There is no shame in asking for a little help now and then (just a thought). Take care ....
just got back from biopsy..yikes..not fun..cried the whole time..now the waiting game..24/48 hours .I have people praying for me..which helps..just dont want to go on this "journey" as nurse called it..I just dont!!!
you are so right..I am looking too far ahead..scaring myself..but thats what I do..I am a what if person..a plan B person.I need a plan B to survive..and I dont know enough about all this to devise a plan B..I think that is whats so difficult for me ..so much to learn.so many questions.
I will take your advice and look into support groups..I just wouldnt be able to handle the guilt of making my family worry..
thank you again for your thoughts and reassurances.
yes I will try one day at a time.but next week will be hell..but I will try and reach out to ACS..again best wishes to you and thanks again..
The BIRADS is merely a scale that indicates what should be done following the film that showed something of a suspicious nature. A score of 4 indicates the need for a biopsy and a 5 means that there is a suspicion that a malignancy might exist. This of course is meant for the treating Physicians so that they understand what additional tests or procedures should be advised. Cancer, if that is indeed the case, rarely prevents a person from working a part-time job any more than any type of surgery or illness would. There have been wonderful advances in recent years and more every day that make the treatment for cancer very manageable while living a normal productive life. If the Technician did say "you have cancer" she/he should be reported to her/his superior as this is something that NO ONE should ever say to a patient, mainly because it isn't true !! You can even look up the Birads scoring system and see what each number means. Of course something that doesn't look normal to a Radiologist who reads these films many times every day may appear "highly suggestive" of some disease, a biopsy and Pathology studies are necessary for a diagnosis. There is no reason NOT to share your concerns with at least one member of your family, although you know them best. You might be surprised by how much strength one of them will have and how much they will be able to understand and help you at this time. Even a good friend can be a tremendous comfort at a time like this. There are many hospitals or clinics that have support groups too and the American Cancer Society has volunteer groups that will contact you by phone just to talk and share experiences with others in need of support and comfort. Don't hesitate to ask at your local hospital or call the ACS for advice or help. We are also here to help in whatever way we can. Try to relax a bit even though this is scary territory; we've all been there and come out winners ... so can YOU. Things will happen in their own time and can't be rushed so try not to think so far ahead; you'll only scare yourself more. Take it all one day at a time and make a written list of questions to take with you to all appointments; if you ask you will get answers so "SPEAK UP" , don't "GIVE UP" !
Kindest regards ....
THANK YOU for your suggestions..my sister is not an option..bc of her blood pressure...no friends to speak of that I can foresee any comfort from. As the radiologist was telling me I am afraid I didnt really comprehend what he was saying b/c I was led to believe the call back was routine..even told nothing to worry about., so I wasnt prepared. When I called nurse back, after some research stated 80% of biopsies come back negative..she just said "thats for Bi-rad4..yous a 5..you have cancer..this biopsy NOTprecautionary"...OUCH!
So maybe better to be prepared for worse case. I am just very scared /worried..as my age..I do recall he saying a mass ..but thats all I remember except for the word calcium deposits.The waiting alone is torture.
Could someone go with you for your biopsy? (your sister, a neighbour, a friend?) Your thinking may be clearer with a friendly presence and the whole experience may become less oppressive.
The radiologist and nurse appear to have been talking out of turn as without a confirming biopsy, there's no certainty involved. Why mislead patients by spouting major bad news before any definitive facts are known?