Broken heart

[KerriC1]

I had to put my beloved rescue dogs to sleep today due to congestive heart failure. My heart is broken and as I type this I can't stop crying. I know it may sound silly to some people but I loved her more than some humans. She was my sweet girl and there will forever be a hike in my heart....

Rest in peace sweet Ruby girl

[selmaS]

  My furbaby went over the rainbow bridge when my daughter was quite small...and I can still cry when I stop and think about her....you never stop missing them, just as you never stop missing any love one that passes.

Cry, vent what ever you need to...but move the beds...and take your time....we all know and understand <3

[KerriC1]

thank you all so very much for the kind words. It helps to talk about her but I see her beds and just get sad all over again. The house is too quiet. And I just miss her terribly. Suddenly my pains and problems just feel so insignificant, and my world has been turned upside down. I do know that she is in a better place and pain free and I will see her again but for now I'm just a big cry baby..... You guys are all so wonderful and compassionate and I appreciate you more than you know. Thank you

[Emme80]

You have every right to cry/be a cry baby! I STILL am!!!  It's that great a love!  It's a blessing to know such love! I made a "Cash Box" special memories, collar, paw prints, kong, etc.
My way of keeping something tangible of him.  
I'm glad you have your sweet beagle to hold you...I'm sure you'll hold each other through the emptiness(I know how still and quiet that is...it an awful stillness, but it does get..adjusted)
Much love to you!!!!

[selmaS]

  My deepest Sympathies on the loss of your sweet furbaby....I know the pain of losing a beloved pet....they are our family and no one that has not had one can truly understand just how they grow to be a part of us.

My daughter has a rescue and my hubby and I ask for days to have her...she is our grand puppy and we love her like a grand child...so I do know how you feel.

Just know that she will wait for you on the Rainbow bridge <3

[Emme80]

My mom did that with Cash too Selma. She wanted her Grandpuppy days. As with Skyker, the goofball.
They truly are some of the best medicine and become a huge part of our hearts! I can't imagine a world without dogs!
True, the ones we've lost will meet us in a much happier place!

[fro510]

I feel your pain as I too had to say goodbye to sweet angel recently. You should mourn as you need and no apologies are necessary. The only way I get through without him is I know he is feeling wonderful in a better place and he is waiting for me at the rainbow bridge. Take solace in you provided her a great life that she would not have had without you.

[Emme80]

.....awwwww girl......I am SO sorry to hear of your loss. I completely understand & feel your pain in a big way!!! Im so sorry for your broken heart! It does not sound silly at allllllll that you loved her more than people! I feel the same way! I understand that feeling...I had a rescue - he was my partner in crime - my best friend.... I've had many friends walk out on me & even family turn their backs, but Cash (named after the Man in Black, Mr. Johnny Cash-he was a large black & white pointer/lab mix) but he always loved me. Always smiled to see me walk in that door, snuggle ....I know 100% how it MAY sound silly- but I KNOW that love with your dog! I've always said I never knew love, true unconditional love until I found Cash! So I get it (maybe if I had a child, I'd feel that way...the love of a mother for their child. But he was my baby! I'm crying now...for the crack in your heart that I know all too well! It's...horrible. I cry for your heart b/c I know that even 3 years later I cry about having to say goodbye. My family said I shouldn't go in the room w/him as he "went to sleep"...but I promised him, the day I rescued him "it's you and me..until the end, right?" And I couldn't have done it any other way. I gave him an awesome life, he was lived, had fun, one happy boy. And sweet...and we had our own conversations (I lived alone for 10 of my 14 years w/him, so we had a lot of conversations! And I held his head, petted him and thanked him for what he gave me until the last breath. I had to take a week off work ( I was actually given the week off) and I stillllll can't get over that boy.
I completely know how your heart is breaking. When you're that close w/ your dog, it's special, unique and a treasured thing that Cannot be matched. I'm so sorry.
I did not think I had it in me to open my heart again to having another dog b/c A) it wouldn't be Cash & B) I didn't want to love again and have to likely say goodbye again.
The only thing that opened my heart again was (with a little time), I realized how broke my heart was that other dogs- like Cash- needed someone to love them. I ended up inquiring with a rescue group about any dog that needed rescuing soon. They sent me 2 files of dogs that were to be "put down" in a matter of a day or 2. It hit me hard- one of the dogs could've been Cash's brother....just a little goofier/sillier seeming. Literally, black & white pointer/lab. I thought no way, it's like I'm replacing Cash- hell remind me of Cash.I prayed about it. The next morning I felt differently, maybe I was supposed to have him. Turns out I did. I do not feel I've replaced Cash...I just love these black&white Pointer/Labs... And maybe he found me the way Cash did. So, here I am, with Skyler Jackson. And my heart has that same kind of love, but it's Skyler love- not Cash love. It IS that same unconditional, me&him in it for life promise, that silly sounding "love him more than humans" love though.
I know none of this makes your heart any less cracked. I can't say that time heals all wounds- I think of it as a scar - but only such a deep love would leave such a scar- it's that kind of great pure love.
I know nothing I say can make you feel better- and I hope I've not said too much (I often do). Just know that my heart feels that pain right now for you...I get it. Keep loving your baby girl. She, Ruby, obviously made your world brighter! The saying "a man's best friend" couldn't be more true!!! You're blessed to have that & it'll never be gone. And Ruby was blessed to land in your arms! She may send you another your way when you're ready...  I feel Cash did.  
You have every right to cry as much as you need or want to! If I could give you a big hug right now, I would.  
I do send you all my condolences, I'm so sorry to hear you're hearts cracked, and as many tissues, hugs & love!!!
<3 <3 <3
Love, Emme.
Ruby and you are lucky. I know that.

[KerriC1]

typo with dogs. It should've just been dog.....