New to the forum.
Nearly 3 years since surgery.
I'm searching for answers on why I experience severe anxiety and extreme irritability along with depression and anger outburst. Did I exchange one issue for another? I always ask my Nuero team was it worth it, obviously they tell me it had to be done, which I tend to agree, but just like being reassured. Father of three, 7, 5, and 3, they are watching their dad self-destruct and seeing me at my worst. The VA thinks its a lot to do with PTSD, I seem to disagree with that, because I was able to manage it for the whole time until post surgery. It feels like after surgery it has opened a box and I have to re-learn how to learn how to deal with every emotion all over again along with who I'm becoming each day. Reading these post makes me feel like I'm not alone and there is hope to get better. I speak to the medical teams on learning how to re-wire everything and I do feel like there may be hope. I cannot go on watching and living everyday seeing how upset the kids are when I go into these dark moods. I truly feel like this is from surgery. I understand we have to have these surgeries done to live a more comfortable life, but how we get better and learn to handle the new normal, is not yet provided for us from our Nuero Teams and Providers. I'm 31 years old and I don't want this to be my story until the end. I want to learn to get better on dealing with these high emotion. I lived a life so for with high emotions, but now it seems to have taken over and i look to other patients now to see how they have managed. Thanks again, for reading my rant, I'm open to most all suggestions or thoughts.