Whats wrong with me

[lost lyd]

In april my boyfriend of 5 months broke up with me. everything seemed to be goin well till he cheated on me for the econg time and he broke up with me.
Everyday i feel realy alone and seem to concoct plans to get him back.I feel sick a lot and struggle to eat. I keep hearing voices in my head telling me he's bad for me and then some tellin me he still wants me and then i dont know what im doin and i sumtimes consider wanting to kill myself.but i know i could never go through with it.All i think about is having a boyfriend whom i love and who loves me and so on with the things most ppl wish for.
I had a boyfriend two years ago whom was my first love but for unmentionable reasons i broke up with him which must be one of the biggest mistakes i made and i still want him even more than the other boy.I know that i obsess with being fancied by everyone and i think i was in love with the LOVE he was giving me,more than being in love with him.I make up stories and keep telling my self im mentally ill i crave the attention.Im even finding it hard to go out of my house and live in the real world becoz i find it easier to live in the world ive made up in my head.even my friends don't know this side to me. please dont tell me to discuss this with my parents or sum1 i trust becoz i dont trust anyone and i can only confide in sum1 who has no connection with me or my family becoz they wont change their original view on me. please help me.

[Desert_dweller5]

I am going through the same thing but to a lesser degree.  I don't know what this condition is called but I found, on the net, something that sounds similar to this.  It's called Dependant personality disorder and It might beifit the poster or anyone to look it up on Google.com or I have a site that you can go to that describes the symptoms.  WWW.psychcentral.com/disorders/sx13.htm
copy and paste it into your adress its a good site look around.
I would also like to say that Therapy does help!
Peace
Desert_dweller5

[spotness]

Not that ur advice isn't supportive, but the gist I caught is a teen who's progressively isolating herself and has intrusive thoughts. Accessing counselling is pretty important, I think. If she has no one to talk to (and she doesn't confide in friends or family) then a counseller is an impartial, trained stranger who can help her to sort out her thought and cope with her stresses.

[anicka]

It sounds like maybe you didn't get the Love and attention while growing up that you deserved. Realize that sometimes this is not always possible. Some people are not capable of showing Love. I would recommend trying to get involved in activities that will make you feel good about yourself, either activities that you find healthy and fun or maybe something to help someone else out in need. This can be very gratifying. Concentrate on doing what makes you happy for now and then later you can focus on relationships with other boys/men depending on your age. Know that you are a loving person and have a lot to offer this world. Even though things may not have gone or are going the way you would like, you can decide to make things better for yourself from this point on. Besides anyone who cheats on you does not deserve your love, and you deserve better than that!

[Kevin Kennedy, Ph.D.]

You will achieve significant benefit from speaking with a therapist. Tell your parents that you have some personal things you want to discuss with a therapist, and ask your parents to arrange this for you. If you can't bring yourself to say this directly to your parents, ask someone to intercede for you.