Good morning,
Recently I was reading an autobiography that discussed the author having sexual curiosity as a child. This triggered me to remember having shameful feelings as a child that involved my sister and I wanted to talk to someone to understand if that was normal and if I should speak to my sister about it now.
I am 33 now, my sister 30. When we were children I recall a few (maybe 2) times where I was sexually curious. I think I was 8 or 9 at the time. This was right around the time shows like Beverly Hills 90210 came out. My sister and I would get undressed and kiss for a few seconds. I never touched her inappropriately (or ever wanted to) or coerced her into doing anything. I was doing it out of curiosity, mainly the kissing part (again, I felt influenced by shows that were probably too “adult” for me to watch at that age). As I grew out of that, I shifted my attention to having boy crushes, and nothing that like happened again with my sister.
Now looking back, I am so embarrassed about it and wonder if I should talk to her about it. However, I think doing so would just be to make me feel better and create awkward feelings that aren’t necessary. We are very close and I would hate to taint her image of childhood for something we both barely remember.
Was what I did with my sister normal child behavior? Is it ok to let it go and move on?
Thanks!