I am sitting here really scared right now. I started having weird symptoms this past year. My platelets are always low, and I got a rash on my face, swollen stomach, itchiness, losing hair, red hands w/ no tolerance to cold. abdominal pain. My Dr would give me various creams and pain meds. For some messed up reasons, I finally had to find a new Dr, because he just seems like he wants you in and out and has too many patients. I went out and got a pain Dr. and was told I have to wait a couple of months for a new G.P. A couple of days ago I started getting bad pain in my belly button. It seems to be getting worse, and now it is bleeding.I usually hate going to the Dr because I have to tell them about a past that includes I.V. drug use & prison.In prison I developed a tumor on my pancreas and almost died from surgery. I was also diagnosed with Hep. C, portal hyper tension, gastric varices, and beginning cirrhosis. I was in bad shape. Somehow, I survived prison, and was released in 2000. I stayed clean and really thrived up until last year. Its weird, I got faster and more thorough care in prison. Hardly anything has been addressed since I got out + I have been avoiding admitting that my health is failing. I have heard I probably would not be considered for a transplant if I needed one due to my past. When I was a junkie, it was as though I was committing slow suicide, but now that I am facing a serious illness, all I want is more time on Earth. My 1st grandchild has given me so much joy, I want to stick around. I am debating whether to go to the E.R. or wait to see my new Dr.