So I've written about this before but I could really use some advice I'll give you all an overview of my situation and hopefully someone can give me some advice that will help me out.
So I found out I was pregnant on janurary 1,2019. I had my period Nov 5-9th On November 9,2018 I had sex with guy #1 first and last time it happened not sure if he did or did not finish it was a drunken mistake night. Fast forward to mid November up till December I had sex with guy #2 I say more than 5 sexual encounters with guy #2 in December. I DONT remember of I had a regular period In December but I do remember clotting and blood on December 6 and 7 not sure if the situation is just messing with my mind and not allowing me to remember if it was a normal period or not. Fast forward to janurary 1,2019 I went to the hospital for pain. if my period would have been from December 2-7 I would have been dating at 4 weeks 2 days pregnant. The 2 ultrasounds they took that day on my stomach and intravaginal dated me at 4 weeks 6 days pregnant here is my time line. According to ultrasounds
4 weeks 6 days EDD according to period September 8,2019
10 weeks 0 days
EDD by ultrasound September 3,2019
12 weeks 3 days EDD September 7,2019
18 weeks 5 days EDD September 6,2019
25 weeks 5 days EDD September 6,2019
It seems ALL my ultrasounds are conclusive but my mind is not allowing me to accept who the father is which according to my ultrasounds would be December guy and the ideal guy the person I DO WANT to be the father. I'm not sure how to get this thought and this anxiety out of my head it is a constant battle. I keep thinking that the ultrasounds are wrong that the due date is wrong but EVERY ultrasound has been conclusive and have backed each other up by dates my kind keeps saying what if November guy is the dad and the thought wont leave my mind. What if the ultrasounds are wrong what if you just involved December guy and he isnt the dad I dont know what to do how to clear my mind or my anxiety I really need some advice and some peace of mind I'm sorry this was so long but I have no one to talk to and my anxiety is getting worse as time gets closer. People keep saying I look too big to be 6 months far along and that also is a mental trigger for me. I dont know what to do please any advice is appreciated.