I am a 34 year old woman & I have dealt with depression my whole life. I also believe that the problem I have with feeling any kind of emotion is more than likely due to PTSD. My family knows the trauma I have been through & they all think PTSD is just a bunch of hooey & "get over it" is thier attitude. So I have learned ways of creating deversions that can pull me out of my ruts most of the time. The problem I have right now is that I have all the sudden gained about 10 pounds for no reason, nothings changed. I am cold all the time & my toes & fingers will go numb. I cant seem to focus on anything & lose words when I am in a conversation, my short term memory has become increasingly bad, my thoughts are racing constantly, my ears are ringing so loud CONSTANTLY that I cant go to sleep without the radio or TV on to tune out the ringing, my periods have become heavy, I feel totally weak, my skin, hair & nails are extremely dry, my face & eyes are all puffed up and along with constapation, you would think I have all the symptoms of "hypothyroid" right? I mean I have searched out my symptoms for months and it all pointed to "hypothyriod" The problem now is that I cant stay awake. I am sleeping 18 to 20 hours a day and this sleep thing has gone on for almost two weeks now. When I am awake I just feel weak & any little smidge of pressure or stress makes me feel horrible anxioty. I cant even talk on the phone or have a simple conversation without feeling like i am using every bit of brain power I have left, just to get through a simple call. I went to the doctor and explained all of this and he nonshalonly mentioned : Lukemia, Anemia, and thyroid...explaining to me his concerns for wanting to do a blood test. I hardly remember a thing he said & didnt care I just wanted him to fix me. So a week goes by and today my results came back... NEGITIVE! So not being satisfied, I went back up there & he said "nothing is wrong with you except that it may be 'depression' and I am going to give you Zoloft" So I take the Zoloft, go home and sleep. Now I am awake & as tired as I am, I need to know, does this sound right? I know what depression feels like, this is not it. What can I do? Every time I have been perscribed meds for depression, I get worse! I fear that the Zoloft is only going to make me even more tired. I cant stand feeling like this. My whole family thinks depression is just something people cook up in thier heads & keep telling me I just need to get out more. I was actually disappointed that he found nothing wrong with me, because now I have no hope to fix anything quickly. I just need some direction here & I have no insurance. I did sign up for it but it doesnt kick in for 2 more weeks. What can I do?
Thank you in advance,
Wanda Doty