Confused

[betty700]

My Mother and father down to aunts uncles etc....... on both sides have struggled with depression My father passed away 3 years ago,as he said he could not live like this anymore ,he was on all kinds of antidepressants.So he died one year later in bed which the doctors called failure to thrive.I myself started with antidepressants in my mid 20s.Im 51 and there was an 8 year r elivee of not being depressed at all,. without my antidepressants.Since my fathers death 3 years ago.Iam so depressed,Im on 100mg of imimprmine or tofronel.no good.My husband will not support me me but continues to give me a time if I do not stop this he will devoice me.Ive bbeen trying but today i give up, I cant pretend anymore,its so hard to hide it.I got a job hoping it will help it has a little only because my husband is off my back about me not working.Its such a struggle to even get to work
.Once I come home im back to sleepless nights no interest in cooking swimming going anywhere.I want to run away and never knew I had this life.I wish I could start all over.Should I stop working until I can get this under control? or suffer the consequences of my husband leaving me with nothing except  this depression. We have been married 21 years,He wont tolerate this thing they call depression nor does he want to understand it at all.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

You need to see a therapist or counselor to work this out with your husband as well as deal with the conseqences of your father's death, and the depression you suffered after, and still do.  The fact that you had a long period without antidepressants is very encouraging...a little counseling may help a lot...try it.

[tryinginstlouis]

Everyday is a chance to start your life anew.  

[zack32]

You are in a tough spot because people who aren't depressed sometimes can't understand. They think that it is something you can just snap out of. It isn't that easy. Depression is usually caused by a chemical unbalance in the brain. Perhaps the medication you are on is not the right one and it needs to be changed. My mother has suffered most of her life with depression, but when she went through the change of life the depression got worse and she wouldn't even leave the house. For about a year. The doctor finally adjusted the medication due to the fact that her hormones had changed. It was like and night. She was going back to work and getting out of the house again. So perhaps you can discuss with your Dr. a possible change in medication. I hope this helps but again I'm  not a Dr. just a concerned citizen.