I lost my mother in 2000,and my family of 3 brothers moved to differant parts of the country.We lived in north MI and I have been trying to sell our home for 4 years.we finaly did and have taken trips to the south and decided on Hot Springs AR.and we are looking at building a home,I have had a feeling of being alone,and having no family.2 of my brothers are in wichita,I even went there for 1month to see if we could live there. My wife found job offers and we looked at homes. My third brother is bouncing from myrtle beach and back to michigan for work.I can not get a feeling of HOME.I like hot springs and when I am not here I want to come back, but when I am here, I want to move near family,when I am near family the feeling I want and closness is not there.My wife is getting upset with me not being able to make up my mind. I am 45 yo. and we have been married for 26 years.I used to be able to just make a desision and make it work good one or not. Now I second guess every move I make.I am even feeling a longing for MI and know this is normal when you leave a familar place.I just can not stand the snow and cold in the winter.I know I will feel better if I have a house with my things around me. but I have never felt so undecided before.I lived in florida for 7ys and visited my family once a year and was fine. Now every thing that should bring me joy is empty.We have not been able to have children and I do not know if this is a subconcious problem or not.I used to dislike children