I feel where you are coming from. I've been on Paxil for 9 years... most of my adolescent life. I'm now 23 and just weaned totally off of them. Like you, I had mood swings towards family and my boyfriend and I didn't like what I was feeling. I chaulked it up to being on the Paxil for too long. I originally intended on switching from Paxil to Effectzar (spelling?) but I'm gonna try and work things out without anything as I have been feeling ok so far.
I've also tried talking to several different people about it, but I quickly found out that it just wasn't for me so I know where your coming from with that also.
So for now, I guess I'm going to just go with the flow......
Good luck and hope you find what works!
I would go see a psychiatrist, you could have bipolar due to the extreme mood swings. Check out www.mcmanweb.com this is an excellent place to learn about the spectrum of depression and bipolar. I have read their under some of the depressions that anger outburst are common for different types of depression. You may just need to get off your medication and on to a different type of antidepressants. I have had to change to find the right on for me. I hear this is common.
do you feel like you have a good relationship with your husband and children?
Check around for a christian counselor, it worked for me. Also what worked for me is reading a lot - about my "issues".
I have faced a lot of issues with years of counseling. Stress has got to play a part in all this too!
Easier said than done. I am not opposed to counseling - quite the opposite. My issue is finding someone who is decent and lately I am trying to determine if a psychiatrist is something more I need that a psychologist or counselor. I could go back to the counselor my husband and I were counseling with a few years ago for marital issues. I didn't see her on a personal basis. I suppose anywhere to start would be good.
I would strongly suggest that you do some serious counseling. The medications have serve a purpose of suppressing things that are bothering you about your life or yourself, but now you should be facing and resolving them rather than looking for a medication fix.