This March (2004) I began taking Lexapro for depression and general anxiety. I started with 5mg for a week then move up to 10mg for a month but this had no effect on my depression. So, my doctor increased the dosage to 20mg, hoping that the increased dosage would help me. Well, I took the medicine religiously hoping the medication would reduce my depression and help me have a peace of mind. However, I did get better in fact the symptoms become worse, I became very sad, I would cry uncontrollably for simple things. But that's not the worse part, I also become very irrational couldn't focus on my task and even lost my job.
When, I lost my job I was inconsolable and cried for like hours but I wasn't upset about loosing my job. Around the same time, my friend and I, got into a huge fight. Normally, I would have been sad but I would have said whatever and moved on...but this time, I became irrational unusually angry. I wouldn't sleep a full night because, I would be so angry and then I would be thinking about death (not suicide but how I would die soon). I would think that my days were on earth were short and there was no point in being rational.
I continued taking my medication because I hoped that it eventually would