Living with depression, anxiety, social nervousness and peronality disorder

[Try_to_be_social]

Dear everybody,

I had a very unhappy childhood. My father tried to be domineering. Everybody in the family has to listen to him. As a result there were frequent arguments between my parents, which led to irritability in my mother. The whole atmosphere of the family was therefore poor. Father was the king, Mother was the bad-temper queen, my elder brother is the prince and I was lowest in the hierarchy and subject to bully. How can I face people with such upbringing? I have runny nose practically all the time and my handkerchief was always wet and dirty. My severe perennial allergic rhinitis that could not be helped by Ear-nose-throat specialists added to my low self-image. I used to suffer from asthma as well. Both the rhinitis and the asthma were worst in the winter but Father was a miser who would not spend money to warm up the house in the winter. Winter was therefore my nightmare. I was so low that I literally could not look up to see people. I always avoided eye contact with others especially persons of some authority, beauty or virtue. I was extremely uneasy in social situations. I thought others were looking down on me; no body would like and love me. I am still single. I have very few friends. Most of my acquaintances look down upon and do not contact me.

To try to overcome social anxiety, I tried a couple of sections of psychoanalysis section with a

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

The best advice I can give you is that you seek insight therapy and take only the medications necessary to help you with your social anxiety.  You past experiences have set a pattern but you can change that  pattern.  You will have an automatic feeling response to people that is similar to the past, but then, after a beat, you can look at the reality of the situation and find a much better response than your old responses thatwere based on such low self regard.  It will take many sessions..don't expect a magical cure..but a good therapist will give you homework so you can work on things in between sessions.   Get this kind of help..stop looking for a chemical cure.