40, M., the only boy and youngest in a loving family, happily married for 14 years with two daughters, I always had difficulties maintaining a long enough night sleep.
I have been through –possibly- worst difficulties, non, effected me this way.
I have HSV1&2, last outbreaks; 02/May/06 and 23/SEP/08.
I suffer from high cholesterol, discovered in 2006.
In mid 2007 had my first kidney stone attack, have been to the ER a number of times, did two procedures; ESWL and ureteroscopy in may, started producing more stones (pain).
Post ureteroscopy pain lasted for two month, during which I took Buscopan, Cataflam and Tramadol once at night, stopping Tramadol -cold turckey- caused sleeplessness, took Ambien, it helped.
My dad is on dialysis for kidney failure, sold our house and bought another; works on it don’t seem to end.
In July 2008 my wife and I tried for another baby via in vitro, initially worked, than miscarried around 05/SET/08.
In early august I purchased an expensive car, was a difficult decision, truly depressed me, as I had high expectations for enjoying life but material didn’t seem to help, shortly after I had a short bout of dizziness, dry cough and feeling of emptiness.
On 11/SEP/08 I was very stressed and sick with flu like symptoms, GP prescribed Cipro.
Researching symptoms online (fever, headache, dizziness, dry cough, oral thrush & penile yeast infection –post Cipro.- and my last HSV outbreak) keep on leading me to believe that I contracted HIV, deep depression and anxiety took over, did 4 and 8 weeks post possible exposure tests, results; negative, online experts confirmed I couldn’t have contracted it.
Most symptoms disappeared; still have fluctuating dizziness, same amount of oral thrush and penile yeast infection.
Expert’s assurance comforted me for few days, anxiety recommenced due to reviewing the conflicting online HIV theories, I lost interest in pleasure, my life revolves around HIV, I don’t know what to do, please help.