Obsession and Anxiety - Xanax.....Nervous

[That Dude]

Are obsession and anxiety the same thing. Long story short, 6 months ago a slept with a prostitute, deeply regretted, and had myself under the microscope lookin for anything. Month and half later, I noticed a bump on lip Dermotologist said it was a wart and froze it and 2 other real small ones on hand. Still have couple on hands. I don't have any on my genitals but have been obsessesed with the whole possibility, as I've done much research on the virus that causes all warts. I got tested for everything possible and all was negative but theres no test for genital warts, unless you have them. I've been to a hynotist that gave me a tape of the session and it does help me relax, I've been seeing a social worker but he annoys me. This is pretty much what I think about 24/7. I been seeing a psyciatrist. They say I have (GAD) but I'm not so sure because before this I was fine...for all intensive purposes. Maybe a little generalized anxiety but not an obsession like this. My psyciatrist first perscribed me Celexa but I didn't want to have to take it every day and was nervous about side effects and stuff. I went back to her yesterday wondering if there was something I could take not everyday, just for stress as needed. She proscribed me Xanax. I almost filled but have been reading some horror stories about withdrawal. Not sure I really need it. I am hoping for some advise.

Am I just in denial that I have GAD? or some other anxiety related condition?

Do you think I should take fill Xanax .5 and take just when needed or?

I feel I'm mainly just obessesed with one mistake I made and having a real problem getting over it. I don't want to get hooked on Xanax.

Do you think I have an Anxiety problem or just a bad obsession I need to get over?

Anxiety and Obsession, Are they kinda like the same thing?

Sorry for such long post, any comments appreciated.

Thanks in advance.

[That Dude]

Good stuff Doc.....thanks much

Now if I can just find a therapist/psychiatrist that fits that bill. Mine won't see me unless I'm on medication. And the social worker just talks about totally non related, non issues and gives me funny looks when I speak.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

first of all, the labels.  Obsession is what you have. It is actually a form of anxiety. The mind concentrates on one unsolvable issue like you have ( have you contracted a disease or not) and while doing that avoids all of the other life causes of anxiety.  You should be treated by a therapist who is well trained and understands this complex relationship inside your mind, usually a psychiatrist with analytic orientation.  That is much better than any medications, and you are right, xanax is useful, but very addicting.

[That Dude]

Thanks for the adivse, yeah, I've heard Xanax can be very addictive, thats what makes me nervous. anyway.

Oh man, I've wished for the last six months I just got a blow job, that was my plan, what I wanted to do, but I kinda lost it in the heat of the moment. Thats part of my problem, wishin I just did that (BJ) cause then I wouldn't of had to worry, see I've been tested for everything you mentioned but there is no test for HPV, the virus that causes genital warts and all warts actually. It's been an obsessed filled 6 months for me. I'm like an HPV expert now with all the research, I've done and most people don't even know what it is, and I don't want to know...but I do and I'm obsessed with what I put my self at risk for.

thanks for comments,
and I wish you best of luck with your problem!

[Megazoid420]

by the way, i got a blowjob from a hooker once, and i was pretty freaked out about it...but I'm STD free.     Get your STD tests....  Hiv antibody, Hepatitis B and C, Syphillis, HSV 1 and 2 antibodies, and a chlamydia/ghonnerea swabb.   Since so much time has passed, if these are all negative, you're just fine!

[Megazoid420]

hey listen dude,

i've had problems which i'm sure are physical for a few years now, and everyone including doctors and family and friends really think its "in my head".   Even though I'm sure it's not in my head,  while I'm keeping looking for the answer,  I have to find something to keep me from having panic attacks/racing heart.     I can't take beta blockers because my pulse is already kinda on the slow side when resting and calm.    

I've heard stories about Xanax about how great it is for our sorta problems, but jeez I dunno you're right it is addictive, I even asked me doctor about the .25 pills for as needed but he told me no and tried to shove Prozac down my throat instead...Blah...I have a friend who was given 90  1.0's per month and he seemed like he really really "needed" them, like he would stop the car in the middle of the road and take one out with his hands shaking and stuff.    I'm scared of them but I would be willing to be addicted to something rather than suffer like I have.    I wish I had that prescription, I think you should fill it and use them only when you really really need them,  and then only if your problem is actually being helped alot...just don't let yourself be taking them because the effects are pleasurable that's how you'll get addicted.   I'll check back with you since I spend 99% of my time on the internet anyway, I'll be back soon