Paranoid and Unable to Pay Attention

[Nabob87]

After quitting weed 2-3 months ago, I started to experience what I believe were delusions at one point I actually believed I was a god and that I controlled the fate of the earth. This obviously made me paranoid around other people because I was afraid they'd hurt me. My Greek Mythology classes definitely made me believe in this myth. I also believed that i was claircognizant. This really messed with my head and still does to this day! It's really frustrating because I know i'm interpreting things wrong but I still can't stop thinking i'm right and I am when I’m actually paying attention to their conversation.Hmm..what else, I started reading somethings on how to 'pick up' women and it talked about this thing called meta-frames and how we always have conflicting meta-frames and the stronger one wins or w/e subconsciously. Anyways, my mind's so wacked out it keeps on applying this to every freakin' situation i'm in now. Moreover, I feel as though, i'm projecting my thoughts to others through my body language and eyes which makes me feel even more skeptical to talk to people. I know the thought projection thing might seem ridiculous but I did a test w/ some friends and wrote what I wanted them to know on a piece of paper. i.e. a type of fruit, brand of beer, and a color. They were able to guess them first try! So, I have no idea what to believe!! All I know, is that i'm unable to be my normal cool/calm and collected self around people and that i'm unable to even learn in a lecture because I think people are constantly evaluating me and I’m unable to focus due to paranoia.. And they obviously are because i'm such a "basket-case" / uneasy all the time. Everything seems to be out in the open and obvious or at least I think it is. It's really bothersome because I was the kind of person who brought tons of energy and happiness to a conversation and now it feels as though i'm doing the opposite.

[bobdinker]

Just wanted to let you know that I've had almost the exact same experience as you.  Smoked week for 15yrs. and just became completly detached in all the same ways as you described.  I thought I was the second coming of christ and then it would flip over and I would become the anti-christ.  Complete parinoia.  I thought I could read others thoughts and that I was controlling (on a mental level) others peoples thoughts as well.  All dellusions to some extent.  But like you said with the experiment you did with your friends, there does seem to be something strange going on in these states of mind.  I've been admitted to psyche. wards probally 10-12 times over the years.  It's always taken medication (antipsychotic) and a lot of time for me to come back to ground level so to speak.  That weed can do a number on you.  People says, "no, man it's just an herb" , but it's totally destoyed my life on numerous occasions.  Just wanted to write and let you know that you arent' the only one that's lost their noodle just by smoking a bunch of weed.  Hope it was helpfull to hear from someone else with a VERY similiar reaction and story.  Greg

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

There are medications that can help you regain your former self and there is psychotherapy to help you sort this out..you should see a psychiatrist and try both approaches.

[zack32]

Try doing some research on Schizophrenia. I'm not a doctor though, just a thought.