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People Disgust Me! ?'s

Hi, I wrote early. I am now being checked out for Bipolar, which they think is the most likely diagnosis.  What I want to know is being absolutely disgusted with the human race part of this?  This comes and goes, but there are times when I just hate people, especially my so called friends who seem to be self-absorbed morons who make me sick.  Even my family, everyone is just so annoying to me right now.  It makes me sick the way people are.  I just want to tell them all to jump off a bridge.  I am having a hard time seeing any good in people especially the ones in my life.  I feel like I'd be better off with no friends or family, they just tick me off. Better to be on my own and do my own thing, no more people!  Everything annoys me right now. So, is this part fo it or is it normal or what? How do the rest of you deal with this stuff?  Not on medicine yet, they have to "rule everything else out first" or something like that.  Is medicine the only way to help with this?  I have to wonder about their diagnosis, they always change, not consistent.   Plus I read that people with Bipolar have uneven lobes of the brain in scans and I had an MRI a few years ago for headaches and it says my lobes were even. So wouldn't that rule out Bipolar? Thanks in advance.
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Yeah People disgust me . I just got through e-mailing my bank for their lack of technology. They do not provide me with online or telephone banking. So how am I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE AT 4:30 a.m. not knowing my account balance? Yes I hate people, I hate them for not knowing how to spell, yet inevitably the e mail I sent had some sp errors in it. oh well. I would advise aggainst any pschoanalyses because the first thing they will do is pump you full of drugs that make your sex drive as good as a nun's. Yeah think bipolar is tough on a marriage? Try having 4-5 months of not even wanting sex and think of how it makes your  spouse feel. At the end of my treatment (about a year ago) if I had an appointment at 3:30 and I was still waiting at 3:59, I left. No problem.Period. It not only gave me a chance to miss another of the meaningless meetings but gave me a chance to debate the insurance company when they refused to pay my visit. I love messing with insurance people. I can run around their puny little minds and trample any thought of me paying any out of pocket expense. By the time I get off the phone with them they feel like going out and crying.
   I also get people thinking I am joking about what I say. I have a hard time with Theists, professionals and family. But what is really interesting is when I get hypomanic and end up converting these people to my viewpoint after hours of verbally bashing and deconstructing their puny little thoughts or beliefs.
   After a while though it gets to be where I am up so long that my body yearns for sleep and my mind races too much, and it is not fun. It is then (like now) I wish for something to happen that would put me to sleep. I have medication for that, one of the only ones I will still take . But part of me still yearns to stay awake for fear of missing an epiphany, or revalation that otherwise I would have missed if sleeping.

Besane
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P.S. screw the quacks, they are throwing darts at the broad side of the bard and still missing.
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i'd have to agree with you guys on this (no offence to you people seeing as how you are human and all) but humans are a self-centered, plague-like species which could use a good extermination...April 23, 2003...the memory of gravity....
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I feel the same way as all of you a lot of the time.  I just can't believe people can be so stupid and have no common sense.  I am currently on medication for depression and anxiety, but they aren't helping this aspect.  There are days when I just want to stay in bed with the cat, because I just can't face the stupidity and ignorance.  I am intelligent, and I guess I assume others are just as intelligent, silly me.  There have been many days I tell my husband "I hate everyone but you today."  Some days I even hate him.

I recently met a friend who can't stand anyone either.  This has helped, because most of our conversations are about how stupid people, which would be socially unacceptable in most situations.  At least I have someone to vent with.
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boo
gee,

we are humans to! no one is perfect. what if it was your child that messed up, or even yourself for god sake. People make mistakes.we all do. maybe you are very critical of yourselves, and you explode at everyone else. We need to be more understanding, maybe they are humans also. Hate is a strong word.
at least you were born, maybe one of those people could be very important to you, they could save your life. not all of us are mean.
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Yes, I have had the same feelings of being so disgusted with the human race. Lately I have been so disgusted that I don't even want to speak in English to them. I had a seizure, just one of many, a few months ago and remembered an American Indian language that I must of learned when I was one year old. I can speak it fluently especially when I am in a seizure mode, just going in or coming out of one. I have Temporal Lobe Tantrums that began last year since I quit drinking and I have become so annoyed at times I just answer people in the Indian language or talk to them in it if they talk to me. It's like I feel like being someone else although I prefer to stay home alone with my dogs and cats and jungle paradise I have created for myself.

I take pain killers now for Lupus and Klonopin for anxiety and seizures and that combo seems to keep my mood much better than before. I used to think really violent thoughts before. I am glad I am more controlled now and can function and work again. I was worried I was not going to be able to take care of myself and I did not want to have to take the final way out. Things are better now that I got a new job after getting fired from my last one for having the seizure disorder.
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well, well,
what have I stumbled on? the I hate the world club? well sign me up please, I hate just about 9 out of 10 people! How dumb are some people?, for instance, today at work (I do maintenance work/gardening at a respite home for dementia sufferers)I always park my car up the side of the house in the rear garden, so, in comes one of the girls and parks her car up the side of the house(ample parking elsewhere) blocking me in! struth! no drama's I thought, untill it came to home time that is,(she had taken the company vehicle to take the clients home)I still wasn't too worried figureing a woman of her intelect would have left the keys in the car, don't you believe it! locked up tight as a drum!
of course she was very apologetic when she came back,especially when I told her I had open heart surgery booked for 4 o clock and I had to cancel!.Ye Gods!, what posesses people to do these things?? THERE WAS A PARKING SPACE DIRECTLY TO HER LEFT,EMPTY!!!!
I tell you I nearly done a John Cleese and thrashed her car to within an inch of it's miserable life.........(but I didn't)
(now i've really worked myself up into a lather) change of subject , I'm ashamed to say, I've never heard of Bi polar disorder, I take 100mg of zoloft twice a day(have been up to 4 times a day) for the past 4 years or so and still get extremly angry at times,(Mackenroe syndrome)but funnily enough I have a really good sense of humour, now reading s.k.'s letter about this Bi polar thing has got me thinking,sounds a lot like yours truly! more input please,
hang in there annony mouse, wer'e all behind you, this letter has brought me right down again, I'm a happy chappie again,  but only for the moment you understand,just block me in thats all!
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s.k
you will be fine I m sure. And I have NEVER heard of mental health prof. calling someone even steven normal, not even normal people.

I think borderline is diagnosed that way is because emotions may appear to shift hyper-rapidly within a manic episode even if you are not aware of how you are presenting yourself. Anger can often be construed as depression and various states of euphoria as apathy. I think this is especially so for those of us whose symptoms are not so forward. Although mood-shifts will not appear like a personality switch, I have been in situations where people think I am like an entirely different person because the way my moods manifest themselfs. Retrospecivly, I know what they are talking about, but at the time I was thinking THEY were the ones on crack...

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s.k
If anger and cynicism is the only symptoms you have, then a closer look at your diagnosis would be obvious.

However, I would disagree with the doctor about going to a theripist right away. I have felt the same way about human beings in various episodes, usualy hypomanic, and felt as though I was superior, for me the medication helped entirely. Once the bipolar was controlled, those angry and disgusted feelings left. There is a source, but that source was a psychiatric one, not a psychological one. Although I do become frustrated easily with some of the ways of "human nature", that is just how I am, I am no longer angry and annoyed constantly, such that ANYTHING someone does, or things that are out of my control will cause me intense emotions, which is part of my manic-depression.

The reason i would disagree is because a theripist may be too willing to find some hidden reason why you are so angry at the world. Perhaps for non-bipolars this is OK, however, while it is arguable if you would have any real reason or not beyond delusions of grandure or depressive distortions, the real, treatable, source may likely be bipolar disorder.

The doc is right though, you need to find a likely diagnosis before starting medication. However, I would point out that antimanics will not work unless you are bipolar. And I am fairly certain that they will not worsen other symptoms like anti-depressants can.

Ofcourse, I am not a doctor, so you will have to make the decision regarding medication with your doctor. Regarding theripists though, please be careful if you and your doctor decide to go that way. Do not to be derailed with psychobabble, and focus on all your symptoms, not just the prevailing ones. I am not saying that open-ended theripy does not work, period, but I know from experience AND from others that it is very counter-productive for those of us who lead lives that were honestly dealt with normally and productivly.

I am writing this as a precaution. Bipolar disorder is very easily mistaken for other disorders with catastropphic results. Episodes take forms that are not easily identifiable and symptoms pretend to be other things, only you know exactly how you feel and exactly what you are thinking. You may not be aware, but bipolar emotions are not easy to explain to those who do not experience them.

Remember, as far as we can tell, bipolar disorder is just as much a physical illness as epilepsy, one that medication and lifestyle changes are more suited than open-ended psychotheripy in regards to treatment of the disorder itself. Nothing you have done as a child could have caused bipolar disorder. Although stress, guilt, trauma, ect can certainly make bipolar disorder much, much more severe no evidence would suggest it can be caused by any event or reason beyond the genes you have.

This topic is full of controversy, so you may hear other things, however nearly everything I wrote here is based on research/common medical views, and what is not is based on experience and observations of many bipolar and nonbipolar friends (not scientific). So base an opinion on what makes sense to you. And if you get a bipolar diagnosis, I would encourage you to educate yourself on the topic as much as you can

(PS- I apologize to the doctor, I meant no disrespect.)
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Hi again SK.

You replied to another one of my posts. I appreciate your comments.

I am waiting to get in to see someone, have about a week to go.

I wish anger and cynicism were my only symptoms!  Arrgh! - that's frustration at myself.  I do fine for awhile, normal and content, then I get all energetic and start doing stuff, like researching stuff which gets out of hand later cause I can't stop reading.  Things start out good because I accomplish stuff I want done which is great, but then from sleep deprivation (my guess) I start to think weird and turn into super spas or something.  I start getting nervous and think I am surrounded by evil beings which is just not good, Though during this time I know that they are not real, it is just sleep deprivation or something, but it still Freaks me out cause in the back of my mind I am still thinking well what if it is true.  I do other bizarre things, which are too weird to list.  I get mean too, everything annoys me and at this point I no longer like anyone though when it first begins I really like people a lot and I can actually notice all kinds of details about them, their eyes, noses, etc, I check out how balanced features are, etc, which really seems to interest me, though normally it wouldn't.  Then I finally get to sleep again after who knows how long and then I just want to sleep and sleep and this is when I get hungry before that I am just not hungry, have to remind myself that food should be eaten, but then I think that vitamins are the way to go. This sounds pretty dumb, I know.  I am now at my sleepy stage.  Takes an hour or so to wake up completely and if it wasn't for the kids, I'd still be in bed, love my bed.  I don't hate people right now, still a little irritable, ok maybe still allot irritable cause I am tired.  Think I am getting better now though, just needed sleep.  Thanks though for the comments and suggestions.  I will be careful with the psych guy when I go see him.  Thinking maybe I don't need to now, probably just sleep deprivation which can make people do weird stuff and be cranky.  Too bad about you having BP, glad your medicine is helping though.  I was given that diagnosis as a teenager, then again recently, we'll see if 3 makes it or breaks it.  Just before the recent BP diagnosis's I was told possible borderline, histrionic personality disorder and they thought I was making myself sick using my head kind of like a hypo but I had that ruled out when they found out that I actually had a real live "organic" illness as they call them and there went somatization.  They no longer think borderline due to the fact that I had previous BP diagnosis and because I don't cut/burn, etc plus supposedly I fit BP better.  Sounds like a win lose or draw game to me, they just seem to choose whatever sounds good to them at the time.  Ok I'm going on too much here.  Thanks again and I hope you are ok and things are good with you.
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Hi there Sk :)

Similar to you hey?  I thought I was the only one like this.  Glad I'm not.  It's really getting on my nerves now though, I just want to be able to function normally.  I wonder why they misdiagnose it so much, especially for Borderline, my moods last longer than a few hours and they know that.  I think the shrink I saw just didn't like me much cause I told him off for making me wait for over an hour when I was there on time, that irks me at the best of times and then I asked where he got his diploma cause there was no way I was gonna be psycho-analyzed by someone weth a mail order matchbox diploma. Ok, done ranting and yes I do have an attitude, I'm working on it. I am waiting to get into to see someone, gotta love waiting lists.  I just hope I don't do the old I'm fine nothingis wrong thing again which happens if I leave it too long and I told them that when making the appt, but they said that was the best they could do.  So here I sit, wanting to scream my head off, feeling that nasty old depression sneaking in, trying my best to fight it off and am slowly convincing myself once again that I am fine and that it was stress or sleep deprivation.  Thanks again for the advice, replies and support.  Got a week to go man, I'll let you know how it goes.  Wonder how many people just give up due to long waits.  Hmmm.  Ok Thanks again and take care.
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s.k
Are you describing yourself or me? Sounds pretty strait forward bipolar to my unprofessional ears. Talk to a doctor ASAP. Borderline is a common misdiagnosis for bipolar disorder.

goodluck :)
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You are not alone at all! About hating everyone and thinking everyone is getting on your nerves and thinking everyone is stupid and not wanting to be around people? Not at all!
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Hey Star33,

Thanks again.  I get the same response, they think I am joking, which is not always the case.  Oh well, guess I'll just deal with it.  Was just wondering if it was common or not.  Already doing the therapy thing.  Take care.
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I seem to be "well-liked" too.  What is really crazy though is that people take my comments as humor.  They think I am just being funny.  It may be funny but it is still the truth that I speak.  Friends equal stress.  When I am not at work...I prefer to be at home with my cat and the tv.  You will learn to deal with this in your own way.  Like the doc said, you may need therapy.  I know that my therapist has helped me alot.  Have a good weekend.
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thanks for the comment Forum Dr.  It's hard to know what the right diagnosis is though when I've been given so many different ones over the years.  Too bad about the brain scan, thought it ruled it out, but guess not.
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Hi Star 3.  Thanks for the comment.  Nice to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.  I feel the same way and it just seems to get worse each day, the more people I meet the more I notice how much I can't stand them.  I am not working at the moment (been a few years), which is driving me up the wall, just a housewife.  I've had pretty good jobs in the past, managing offices, accounting, etc.  I used to really love being around people, and I can tolerate most for a short time, but lately I just don't even want to look at most.  That call you wrote about is too funny!  Ha ha.  What is with that?  How did they get through grade school?  That kind of stuff really grates me too.  I have a couple of friends that I do like, same as you.  I have other so called friends but really wish they would go away.  What's even weirder is that I seem to be well liked, I have always had "friends", yet I don't like the majority of them, they are just there and I wish they would take a hike.
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You are not alone Anon.  I feel the same way...People make me sick...I think there are about 4 people that I can stand to be around.  I just think people are sooooooo stupid.  It is very hard for me to tolerate stupidity.  I would like to know what kind of work you do?  Do you deal with the public alot?  I work at a local university and I can't believe how some of these idiots even manage to graduate...GET THIS...one day I get a phone call, ok?  The girl tells me she has a question, she has just received her grade report and wanted to know what "F" means...ugh!!  Anyway, just for your information, I am BiPolar II.  My husband worries about me because he says it is not  healthy for someone to only have 3 friends and I only talk to them on the phone.  Friends=STRESS
Anyway, don't feel bad about hating people, you are not alone.
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You can't make the diagnosis by a brain scan. It doesn't rule it out.

Your anger at everyone has a source.  The best way is to sort that out with a therapist before you rush into medication.ONly take medication when you are sure it is the right diagnosis.
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