For 5 years now I've been suffering from diarrhea and none of my drs can figure out why. We think it's just a bad case of IBS. Because of so many "close calls" while running to the washroom, I have developed a sever phobia of going anywhere for fear of losing bowel control. When I know I have to go anywhere for the day, I don't eat anything (and I mean ANYTHING) and take about 4 immodium pills. I still panic while out in public, because I'm scared I didn't empty out my bowels enough before I left, and I have a real problem with using public washrooms because of the embarrassment. It's such a catch 22: I'm afraid that I'm going to lose bowel control in public, and the anxiety irritates my IBS even more. This consumes my every thought. I think about this at least 75% of the time. I want a medication that will calm me down when I'm in public. I need a medication that works fast as well. Is there such a thing as a medication that will help calm these constant thoughts of using the washroom? I don't know how much longer I can take this. It's affecting my marriage, because I haven't even told my husband the extent of the problem. I've tried Paxil, with no change except a sever case of vertigo..I need something to stop my brain from screaming at me. Please help. Thank you for your time.