I think you are looking in the wrong place. Whatever you want to call it, anxiety or depression or whatever, you know for sure that your body is expressing your state of internal tension through all these symptoms, many of which are a direct result of muscle tenseness. Instead of looking for a magical cure with medications, see a therapist and talk these things through until you find the source of your tension with yourself. It's there. Everyone has an interior life.
2 other quick notes.
1. If I get a ton of sleep, I seem to be a bit better in the morning and it gets worse as the day goes on (which makes me wonder if it really it a nerve problem or muscluar).
2. However, it does seem to be random. I might be just sitting around, seemingly relaxed and then WHAM, jaw pain in some spot, neck tight, and then it goes away. IT happens more often some days than other, and lately more often than not. I do have some short bouts of "Weakness".
3. So far, I have been able to exercise without any real problems other than pain on occasion.
Im sorry your feeling bad.
What meds are you taking now? Have you tried to go to a chiropractor that might help with the neck pain. And yes Anxiety can cause those types of pain. Feeling extreme anxiety can cause you to grind your teeth during the day or at night, causing jaw pain.
Have you tried getting a full body massage that will help.
Let us know.
Isn't it amazing how anxiety can cause all the symptoms that you describe. It is so important to understand anxiety and all the symptoms, so you don't make the medical industry rich. When I think about the thousands and thousands of dollars I spent on doctors and emergency room care to find out I am as healthy as anyone can be, but I feel like I'm unhealty with heart problems...any I don't have heart problems.
You have to learn how to deal with your anxiety and not let it get the best of you. There are many self help books that are excellent...my friend currently has mine.
I have xanax that I take only when I have had a stressful day and I need to relax myself. Even then I try to relax myself without meds.
Your post could've been posted by me...34 yo, great marriage and kids, little financial stressors, very bright future, but overwhelmed with certain work and life events. 2 yrs ago, I started a downhill spiral into a life consumed by anxiety and fear of dying/going crazy, out of which I am finally (albeit partially) emerging. Same symptoms you've posted; my primary issues now are dysequilibrium/dizziness, neck stiffness, occasional total-body pain, generalized fear that something major is wrong (doesn't help that I am a physician with access to lots of medical equipment). Often I can sense my pulse beating throughout my entire body (particularly disconcerting). I am told that my primary diagnosis is "Hyperawareness to normal bodily functions," something many physicians/health care providers experience at some point.
What's helped: very supportive and understanding wife and even kids (5 & 8 years old...they know when dad needs a hug or needs them to chill), bike riding (haven't been great about exercise and lately, have put on some weight [10 lbs over ideal]), repeatedly reminding myself that the recurrent bothersome symptoms I may be experiencing for the moment (sometimes these persist for hours) will have been experienced time and time again before, will dissipate and can be controlled if needed with Klonopine, and yes, infrequent use of Klonopine (Vitamin K, as I like to refer to it). I use 0.25 mg prn (on average 1-2 x per week). I do live with a lot of anxiety/fear, particularly centered on my symptomatology and the possibility that I have a severe underlying illness (to this day, after much blood work, MR C-spine, Brain, abdominal/carotid ultrasound, high level visits with Immunologist, 2 neurologists and every-other week visits with my psychiatrist, I still ruminate over the possibility of a severe underlying disease). I never, ever, ever was like this prior to initial onset of anxiety attacks 2 years ago (just a happy, go-lucky guy who went with the flow and was unscathed by life's stressors). Then, BAM!!! The rest is history.
You're absolutely right about the sleep pattern. When I get a good night's sleep, I feel great in the morning but start to relapse later in the day. Oddly enough, when I get poor/little sleep, I do pretty well. Not sure why.
I could go on and on, but will leave it at this. As a scientist and physician, I must say I am fascinated about what my body is doing and have tried to rationalize certain symptoms on the basis of underlying physiology. This is often more frustrating than helpful and for the most part, I cannot explain many triggers and what exacerbates/improves my symptoms.
Just hang in there and remember, you are not going crazy, you likely will not die (my father had a massive heart attack but survived in his early 40's, something I keep in the back of my mind...I understand your concern with your family history), and that there are probably millions out there who are in the same boat as we are but without a strong support system. And try to learn to ignore the most bothersome symptoms...something I am slowly trying to accomplish. Anxiety creates vigilence which begets more anxiety. Learning to ignore the symptoms and fears may be the best (and cheapset) form of medicine.
GREAT to read your post.
Yup, we could be twins.
I'm not a physician, but I am in the medical field and have extensive training on the heart from both an electrical and plumbing standpoint. I can read ECG's and have access to a machine as needed. I understand drugs and have had stress tests, 64 slice on the heart, Brain MRI, stomach CT, and an upper GI scope.
Tried a couple SSRI's and they made things worse. Xanax does help at times, as did finally breaking down and taking ambien for a few nights to finally get some sleep.
It's hard when I still have jaw pain, arm pain, neck pain etc. However, this week I made a concentrated effort to listen to my shrink, not work as much, take a xanax when I was really ramped up, and exercise. It all seemed to help. Also went to the Chriopractor a couple times and a massage to loosen my back up. Doc thinks a lot of my pain comes from my back and neck completely tightening up with my jaw and causing the cascade.
Good to hear in some ways that you have the same symptoms and such a similar background. I'll keep working at it. Sucks in that for 32 years I never went to the doctor, felt great and had no problems handing anything. Argh.