Serious Problem

[FRANKIE]

I 'm in a state which I'm unalbe to determine whether I'm physically or mentally ill which are causing symptoms on my body that is hard to explain.

I started to lose hair,gangivitis, and dry skin, extreme dry throat and really painful,also diagnosed with cracks on the retina, and these all happened in the past half an year.

All these contributed my mood swing, which happens periodically. Sometimes I feel that I'm in extreme illness, I see my skin are all in pale, and bruised colour, pain over partial portion on the skin, and this could happen anywhere on the body, which is really the fact. Hard to breath, muscle weakness and totally tired, and I will feel really really down.

But at times, I will tell myself that I'm perfectly fine, as I have to tell my body to waive all the symptoms and ignore them. And sometimes this self determination works, and I could see that my body respond to this by showing some positive things, such as soothening on the throat, better skin color, and feel everything in control, and I feel extremely happy, as I feel that I'm given the second chance of life.


But this week , all the miracles started to vanish and the evil is back, I started to see that my skin look all bruised, my gums are hurting and receeded a bit, and there are (pimples) grown on a number of sports on my body, particulaly on my face, and I started to feel all tired AGAIN!!! HELP!! AM I A psychomaniac?

Why is my body is trying to fool me again and again? Did I do something wrong, GOD. I just wanted to live normal, a normal life, and why do I have to enter this situation, helpnessly hopeness.......man I can't control myself........and my tears are falling.......sorry..I really can't control myself.......what did I do wrong.......

Could you think of any medical situations that are simular to my case.......? I just had test on diabetes, liver and renal system and thyroid, and all cam out perfectly fine. And I was suppose to see the doctors in a hospital to have a triage checkup, and it was on two friday ago, but it was such that two wks ago I was once again "RECOVERED" physically and mentally, but all changed once again this wk. Therefore I missed out the occasion for a GOOD CHECKUP, but my feeling tells me that the result would be the same once again, as they will be perfectly fine and once again I will feel hopeness from my doctor.

Is there something wrong? could it be my blood became poisoness, or is there something wrong with my organs, my brain, my hypothalamus, or do I have cancer which I still havne't not discovered? I would really wanted to know the answer to my prob. I really hate the fact that I'm seriously a scientific person, in a sense that I stuided a lot of chemical and biological science, but now I could find a clue myself, as now I think I have disturbed the equilibrium in my body, and there is no way out.

Killing myself was a thought, but I really don't want to put it into action. I attempted but failed. Please help me before the ENDING THOUGHT is strong enough to eat away my concious.

[Dayna]

Get to a psychiatrist!  I lost my grandmother to suicide.  It's not worth it, especially when there is help out there and what you are dealing with is highly treatable!  I also deal with chronic anxiety, stress and it's been tearing my body apart, but my mother is 65 years old and has been dealing with this since she was 7 - i.e. no physical illness.  You're not alone.  There are a lot of promising medications on the market and from what I've read and heard, it's trial and error to which is the best.  My mom had extremely adverse reactions to Prozac, but has finally calmed down on Zoloft.  I have also read it's important to start with low dosages and slowly increase to minimize side effects.  I will start medications for this within the next week because it's become more than I can deal with.  Hang in there!!!   Get help!  Again... you're NOT ALONE!!!

Best wishes and good luck to you!!! :-)

[D ave Replogle]

fRANKIE HOW U DOING ARE U FEELING OK TODAY MAN DID I COME HOME FROM WORK AND VOMITIED ALL OVER BUT I AM STILL HERE SUFFERING GOT A INTERIST APPOINTMENT TOMMAROW ILL LET U  NO IF THEY FIND ANYTHING OUT JUST HANG IN THERE WELL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS I HOPE

[D ave Replogle]

Hello there man u sound just like me i have had problems since march of 99 when i thought i was havind a heart attack so i went to the er room and they did blood work and a ekg all come back as normal but then in june july basiclly all summer i felt real weak and tierd all the time so went back to the er room well guess what everything is normal again so they sent me home well byb that time i thought i was losing my mind so i went to oaklawn a mental type place and they said i was depressed and having anxiety well i still feel like **** and have a internist appointment on the 28th of feb took long enough well i will see what this doc has to say i hope someone gives me a answer soon cause iam loosing it here man if u find anything out let me no email is ***@**** by the way dont kill your self you will just be there soon enough any way

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

The best help I can give you is to strong recommend that you have an evaluation by an experienced psychiatrist who can help sort this out, and see how the mental and physical interact. A psychiatrist is also a medical doctor and he or she can consult with your physician.

It is very likely that you are suffering from a unipolar depression, and that is very treatable so help is just around the corner.