Dear Kelley,
It is unfortunate your relationship ended with this gentleman.
It is important to learn from our past inorder to have a better future.
At this time you say you are alone, feel sad and have enough thought of taking your life. These are symptoms of depression.
IF YOU ARE SUICIDAL GO TO THE NEAREST EMERGENCY ROOM.
Fotunately treatment (psychotherapy and medication) is available that may help you feel better and understand yourself.
I recommend you see a psychiatrist or a therapist.
Best Wishes,
HFHS M.D.-SW
Kelley you are not alone!!!!!4years ago I thought i was alone too. my mom had passed away I never met my Dad, my siblings and i were as far apart as the east is from the west and my husband worked 7 days a week 12 hour days, so when he was home he ate and then slept. The thing that happened to me was one day I was searching for answers and i got on my hands and knees and because I was in a twelve step progam i was doing my 3rd step"turn your will over to God" I said God I believe in you and Jesus I know i dont talk to you much but i believe in you too.and this presence came over me like I was incubated in a cacoon of love .what i found out happened to me was i got saved. Romans 10;8 says If you confess with your mouth Jesus is Lord and beleive in your heart you shall be saved and from that moment Jesus lives in you!!! you will know that you know that you are not alone!!!! Then from there on when you pray give him everything in your heart( he knows it already but he just needs you to reach out)all your pain all your saddness everything and talk to him like you would your best friend (because he is).and pray in Jesus name .Jesus also talks to you through the bible so read and get to know him!(The book of John in the NewTestament is a great place to start)Then plant yourself in a full godpel church where the people can help you and support you and love you the way God does ,Im praying for you .God Bless and remeber Jesus Loves you!!!and so do I Your sister in christ