depression?

[123abcs]

I'm sure your answer will be to go see my doc, but does this sound like depression:
I feel like crying often each day, anxious feeling (weird feeling in my chest) a couple times each day, not happy, can't think of anything tha would really cheer me up, tired, but can't sleep unless I stay up past midnight, no interest in sex, shorter temper than usual, my kids are driving me absolutely crazy, I feel like hitting them - but I don't do it.  I feel like my hubby doesn't really care about me - but I'm sure he does, I am compeltely unmotivated to get anything done around the house - and i am quite sure that this does not make hubby very happy!!  i try, but I just can't seem to do anything.  So?  

[Jaquta]

I don't think anyone can really understand until they go through it.  Being open and honest about what you think and feel is usually always the best policy (in the long-term anyway, short-term it can feel a little uncomfortable/ different).  Honesty does open doors though.

I have found reaching out and asking for support difficult, and also difficult to accept, but I have also found that struggling does not help and in some cases makes the situation worse.

Talking through things with your husband first may also help him see the situation differently.  For example, instead of judging the lack of motivation and perhaps lapses in housework see the fatigue and effort that is required to do any activity.  It may even motivate him enough to take some of the responsibility and pressure off you.

Good Luck!!

[Jaquta]

Thanks for posting this poem.

Usually I really love teaching stories and inspirational stuff but oddly enough I feel rather pessimistic and deflated.

I heard a quote the other day, it went something like:  No matter how fast the light, the darkness always beats it.

I think perseverance and motivation are really important qualities.
Perhaps faith and hope provide that motivation??

Based on my own personal experiences I don't think faith and hope are enough to elicit the changes necessary to live a successful life (irrespective of how one defines success).

Maybe I'm over-complicating things.  For me, faith and hope are words and feelings I associate with peace, tranquility, contentment, success and spirituality, etc.  Maybe I view them as products of ?resolving narcissistic wounds (on an emotional level).

I am confused about what to think about spirituality, but more specifically, about a God.

I take elements covered in this poem and try to apply them to my life because life can feel like an ordeal at times.  We can also feel weighed down during our journey.
It is usually only later that we can truly appreciate the gifts we are given during adversity.

I hope I haven't taken away from something that was suppose to be enlightening and uplifting.
Thanks again for sharing.

J

[stubby226]

It was suggested that I share the following poem with this forum.

ROAD OF LIFE
As you journey along life's highway,
And the going gets real tough.
Just remember that the road will turn
If you persevere enough.
And when miles seem like they're endless
And the hurts within you burn.
Fix your heart upon the heavens.
And the peace for which you yearn
For each heartacheis a sojourn,
That soon must come to and end.
Iif you have faith to carry on,
The toilsome road must bend.
And though life is filled with trouble
Skies are dark before the dawn.
And the ones wholl see the sunlight,
Are the ones who carry on.
So whenever life's broad highway,
Seems too steep for you to climb.
FAITH AND HOPE will lead you onward
To a place of joy sublime.

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[Roger Gould, M.D.]

You are right, you should see a doctor. I suggest you see a psychotherapist who might also prescribe medications if you need them. This definitely sounds like a depression. It can be cured so you should not hesitate to seek treatment.

[123abcs]

Thanks, I guess i should start by talking to my husband about everything first - i just don't think he'll get it, but maybe I'm underestimating him.  We'll see!

[Jaquta]

It sounds like you're feeling extremely overwhelmed (and yes, that could include feeling/ being depressed).

It sounds like you have reservations about talking to a doctor.  It sounds like you do need support though and that would be important to ask for.  Could you discuss how you're feeling with your husband?

Thinking about or feeling like lashing out at your children is a very big warning sign that things are not right.  I would advise following up with a doctor.

J